I really wanted to go out tonight. But I couldn't think of anything that wouldn't really cost money (I am trying to save what little I have) and I had no one to go with. My best friend is at Pismo right now with her church group. My other friend is probably already out. Of course, there is Monique, but, well...I couldn't think of anything to do. Maybe I should have just got in the car, and let the roads take me somewhere. On one hand I want to hang out and on another I just want to be alone.

I chatted with someone today on CC and ya know..he really made me feel like crap. He just made me feel like less of a person and less important. I'd rather not get into the details, but I hate it when people do that. Here is the question: Why do I let a guy I don't even know, and who doesn't know me, get to me? The answer is, I have no idea. Maybe if I was in another state of mind, it wouldn't have bothered me. I would have said screw it and forgot about it. I feel silly, letting this stupid guy ruin my day and my mood...but for some reason..I can't seem to feel better and this happened this afternoon. I think hearing from Curt would help me..but I am not counting on it. : \