I didn't realize it had been so long since I blogged last. My life has been busy and tiring. But I am hoping that it will slow down for a few days at least.

This weekend was half good, half bad. As some of you know, I was supposed to see Curt this weekend. Unfortunately that did not happen. :'(. To keep a long story short, he was sick. He sounded like crap over the phone, and I felt bad for him. Plus it was his mom's b-day, so he had to celebrate that. I knew about his mom's b-day coming into this last weekend, so I knew it *might* not happen. But him being sick confirmed it. The thing that bothered me the most was knowing that he was like 5-10 min away from me, if that, and I couldn't see him. Oh well, maybe another time. This whole thing is just hard. I never dreamed that it would ever be this hard. I knew it'd be hard going into the relationship, but not this hard.

On the other hand, Sunday was awesome. I must say, if you are even just a little interested in NASCAR, I definitely recommend going to a race. There is nothing like it. Sure, I had to sit in the baking sun for 5 hours without ear plugs, but it was worth it. Just awesome. Rusty Wallace won! Woohoo!! (he's one of my fav. drivers). Plus he is Curt's favorite too. All I could think was, this was my first NASCAR race and one of my fav. drivers won. So like I said, this weekend was half good and half bad.

I do have this feeling that things are going to start looking up for Curt and I. I am not sure where this feeling is coming from, but it is there, and I am glad. : )