I hate guilt. It's a very strong feeling and when it takes ahold of me, it takes forever to let go. Though, I am I told I shouldn't feel guilty, but I still do. hehe. I bailed on helping Merc and Wiz on a shoot this weekend. And I told them there was a reason(more than just school), so here I shall discuss that reason.

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If you started reading my blog when I first started blogging, you probably noticed that I mentioned someone named Curt. Actually I think I even mentioned him in my very first blog. Anyways, Curt is basically 'mah main squeeze' lol. Well, not basically, he is. : ) I bet you'll never guess how I met him...*sarcasm* If you haven't guessed by now, I met him on the net. (A wonderful thing, the internet..) Of course, I always said to myself I wouldn't ever get into a 'net relationship'. I mean if other people did it, that was great. But I never thought it was for me. But, then one night in July..someone IMed me on AIM, and well, the rest is history. I certainly didn't expect for him to literally pop into my life..lol.

The story continues....

Next weekend my parents and I are going to the NASCAR race in Fontana, which is in Southern Cali. Curt lives in Corona, well Mira Loma if ya want to get technical, which is right near Fontana. So we are planning on meeting next weekend *OMG*. So yeah, this weekend I need to go shopping for stuff for the trip, and this is the only time I have to do it, plus I do have homework and stuff. I have really been pre-occupied. So that is why I cannot do the shoot this weekend. (I am still sorry guys, but you know you can depend on me..lol).

Curt and I have been 'going out' for a while now. About 7 months to be exact. The reason I haven't said anything until now is because I wasn't sure how people would react. Cause ya know, some people will give ya a bunch of crap for something like this, but I am not ashamed, so yeah. That is the situation. I don't know if any of you really care about this, but it is something that is taking up a lot of my time, and a lot of my mind, so why not just blog about it right?? hehe. Hopefully no one think I am weird or something. Like I said, I certainly never expected this to happen, but ya know what? I am glad it did happen. : ) I love him to death. Not in love...at least I don't think so. If I am in love, I don't necessarily like the way it feels..hehe. He's made me so happy and really, that is all that matters. RIght?? Right. ; )


If you got this far..thanks for reading my Looooong story..hehe.