I really wanted to go out tonight. But I couldn't think of anything that wouldn't really cost money (I am trying to save what little I have) and I had no one to go with. My best friend is at Pismo right now with her church group. My other friend is probably already out. Of course, there is Monique, but, well...I couldn't think of anything to do. Maybe I should have just got in the car, and let the roads take me somewhere. On one hand I want to hang out and on another I just want to be alone.

I chatted with someone today on CC and ya know..he really made me feel like crap. He just made me feel like less of a person and less important. I'd rather not get into the details, but I hate it when people do that. Here is the question: Why do I let a guy I don't even know, and who doesn't know me, get to me? The answer is, I have no idea. Maybe if I was in another state of mind, it wouldn't have bothered me. I would have said screw it and forgot about it. I feel silly, letting this stupid guy ruin my day and my mood...but for some reason..I can't seem to feel better and this happened this afternoon. I think hearing from Curt would help me..but I am not counting on it. : \

"I've opened up my mind, so you could step inside, you could expect to find, a scenic ride."

I just got done reading Sol's blog. The pictures are absolutely beautiful. I think it's really cool, what she is doing and even though I don't know her, I wish her luck. : )

There is a new Blue's Clues toy out and I want it...lol. I just saw the commercial for it a little while ago. I know I am 19, but..I love Blue's Clues. She is soooooooo cute. I have a lot of Blue's Clues stuff already. You should see my room.. ; )

Okay..back to Days of our Lives.....

Diencephalon

"The derivatives of the diencephalon develop in the walls of the third ventricle. The inferior recess of this ventricle dips into the infundibulum of the hypophysis(pitutary gland); the hypothalamus develops in the walls of this recess."

Come again??????????

I should have started my homework when I got home. I had more 'umph' then. Tiredness just hit me hard..and there is homework that needs to be done. Oh, the joys of school. I do get to sleep in longer tomorrow, so that is cool. My friend doesn't need to go to school tomorrow, so I can go at my regular time. So I can get up at 8:30 : ) That is good. Sleep is always good.

On a random note...I received 2 new cds in the mail yesterday..one of them being the latest Cherry Poppin Daddies cd. If anyone out there doesn't know them, they got kinda popular when the whole swing thing came back for short time a few years ago. Anyhoo, I was expecting a swing album, but ya know, it's not that swingy. Sure, it has a few swing songs, but most of them aren't. I am definitely LOVIN' the album. One of the few albums that I have ever 'clicked' with right away. I listened to it twice yesterday and twice today. Don't you just love it when you have a new cd to 'groove' to??

And speaking of swing..there is a CC saying(yes, I know, you are probably sick of them) that reminds me of one of a quote from one of my fav. movies, Swing Kids. CC: "College student by day...amu311bd by night." Swing Kids: "H.J. by day, swing kid by night." Similiar, huh??(I wonder if that is where they got it from?? Probably not) It's not that special of a quote, it just reminded me of the movie. Of course now I have the urge to watch Swing Kids.

Okay, I can't tell if Merc's blog was a compliment or not..lol. Oh well : ) I think that shows how tired I am today.

Once again, this week seems to be going at a slow crawl. I honestly feel like it should be Thursday already. My days are long and my nights are short, which means sleep is at a minimum right now. I am starting to get really burnt out. I just can't wait for spring break. Not that I am going anywhere, but just knowing that I will not have to get up and go to school should make for a good week.

My grade in Bio went down 4%. : ( I had a B and now I have a C. Though, no one to blame but myself..right? Right. Thankfully my other 2 classes are still at the same grade.

Well, I wanted to share a Garfield comic with everyone but I can't figure out how to put an image into my blog..maybe someone can help me out w/that?? I did try, but it didn't come out. So, if I figure it out, I'll be sure and share..hehe. But instead, how about I leave some more of my favorite CC sayings..

"The first rule of amu311bd: you do not talk about amu311bd."
"amu311bd...you so craaaazy!"
"*sniff, sniff, sniff* Is that you, amu311bd?"
"When the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie, that's amu311bd."

Btw, I'm 'diggin' those shirts Merc...

You know, I am quite fond of those little sayings in CollegeClub..ya know the ones at the top. Here are a few of my favs:

"Hey, amu311bd…one time, at band camp…"
"Hee hee! Stop typing, amu311bd -- that tickles!"
"I shall call him...mini-amu311bd."
"Oh my God! They killed amu311bd!"
"amu311bd, oh amu311bd, wherefore art thou amu311bd….?"
"Pretty pretty please? With amu311bd on top?"

Night..sweet dreams : )

Aww, I feel so special..Merc mentioned me in his blog. *smile*. I have been trying to just say some random things. Btw, Merc I like my page! So simple, I never would have thought of that...and I know where you got it...hehehe. Thanks. : )

Well, I went and helped Rick tape this band last night. I had no idea what kind of band it was going into it, but Rick said 'rock' so I was thinking it was a younger band and stuff. Turns out this was a cover band, called 'Run 4 Cover' that consisted of older(not old..but older than me..ya know) people. They mainly covered 70s and 80s songs. But I really did enjoy myself. I worked on camera with another lady Rick knows and it was nice working with her. We ran out of tape about the middle of the 3rd and last set, and I really wanted to get up and dance..lol. I saw 2 other girls from class out dancing, and I was gonna go in their area and 'get my groove on' but I didn't. Rick gave us 10 hours for helping last night, so now I have 17..woohoo. Only about *pulls out calculator*....23 hours to go. I think I can do it.

Today feels like a real lazy day. It is 1pm and I am still in my pjs..and I have been up for a while. I just feel like vegetating all day...I think I might, I deserve it! ; )

I just found out that Zebrahead is supposed to be coming to Fresno next month! Woohoo!! *big grin*

Last night, I really wanted to blog, but for some reason, the website was not loading and stuff. And I had a lot I wanted to say, mainly about my day, which really wouldn't matter now, cause today is a new day..ahh well.

I must say, that I am in the best mood that I have been in the last week. I think it is because I can actually sit down, relax and just breathe. It has been much to hectic this last week.

Not much is going on for me this weekend. So far the only thing I am doing is helping Rick tape a band or something tomorrow night. He said he'd probably put me on camera. I am looking forward to that, because I get to hear a new band. Plus it gives me something to do....I just need to figure out exactly where the Enchanted Playhouse is. I've got a good idea of where it is at..and I think I have walked by it before..so if I go a little early, that should give me time to find it.

I accomplished a lot today. My room looks better than it has for the past month or so. I can see my desk and my floor. And it turns out that I do remember how to make a bed. So right now, I am just enjoying being in my room..cause it looks good. ; )

I am dead tired...I can hardly stay awake..yet I am on here, and I still need to do a take home test that is due tomorrow morning. *sigh* I don't think I would be this tired if it wasn't for the medicine I took at like 2:30pm. I have no idea if this happens to anyone else..but today, I took 2 Sudafed Sinus Headache, cause ya know, I had a headache..and right on the box..it says NON - DROWSY (I hope I did the bold thing right). Anyways, whenever something says non-drowsy..it knocks me out. It just irritates me. AND the only thing that ever worked on my sinus headaches and stuff was the Alka-Seltzer Cold Tablets which they have pulled off the market...I can't win..

Somehow I felt Merc's blog this morning was speaking right at me. Maybe it is because last night I told him that I hadn't blogged cause I didn't have much to say...I'm not saying that is why he said what he did..but that is why I feel like he is talking to me..ya know..hopefully that makes sense.. I did agree w/that blog. There are very good points in there, that I think I have taken to heart. : )

Oh, and I wanted to thank you Ong. Whether it was you or Merc that read my blog, now I know someone is reading them..lol. I will get back to you soon. Getting that e-mail just made me feel good..I have no idea why..it just did. : ) Perhaps because I wasn't expecting it..who knows.

I must be going..I have to work on that test..so I can go to bed at a half-way decent time. Btw, I had my Bio Lecture test tonight...I'm thinkin "C"...

It sure has been a while since I have done this...sorry about that. Haven't really had much to say. Let's see, what is going on right now? Oh yeah, tomorrow is my friends b-day..she turns 20. It is so weird for me to say that. 20..wow. There is no longer that 'teen' in your age. For some reason I am dreading turning 20. Yeah, 21 is supposed to be the 'big' age..but I think 20 is one too. Hmm..I have about 7 months to go before I worry about that..hehe

Went to a counselor on Mon..found out I only have 1 semester left and not the 2 that I thought I had. So HE says I should transfer Spring of 2002. But see, problem is..I have no clue where I want to go..I have narrowed it down to Northridge and Fullerton. But I need to find out more about Fullerton. I need to visit there too. So I think I am going to wait and transfer Fall 2002 (Hmm..I think I am stalling a bit) Plus I can work and save money. : ) Anyhoo..I think It is time that I go..I have a got a major test tomorrow night, and I need to study my butt off. Good night and don't let the bed bugs bite ; )

Today has been one of those days. I have been so spacy and just 'not here' all day long. For some reason I am absolutely exhausted, but I really don't have a reason to be. In fact, if I am so tired, I'm not sure why I am online..habit I guess..hehe.

Yeah I just thought I'd do a small blog, since I haven't done one in a couple of days. oh..actually it's only been a day. I am so out of it..

Tonight I have this over all bummed feeling. I think it is a combination of many little things that I am kinda bummed about. I dunno. I know I am a little bummed, cause I wanted to say hi to Merc tonight, and I didn't : (. I should have just gotten up and said hi, huh? hehe. Anyways, hi Merc! : )

On a very happy note, I just found out that the Warped Tour Dates have been confirmed, and they are coming to Fresno on June 24th and 311 will be there...woohoo!!! So I needs to do some research and find out when tix go on sale and buy some : ) Hopefully I can find someone to go with me. I'm not sure if my best friend will go or not. If not, I go by myself...hehe..I don't care : )

My blog tonight won't be too long. I need to take some Benedryl and go to bed. I feel like sh*t. (Please excuse my language). My head is killing me, my nose is stuffed up and my eyes burn like there is no tomorrow..lol. I should do homework, but I don't think I can bring myself to do any. I also want to say up and watch Jay Leno, cause it's Monday and headlines are on..but I dunno if I'll make it. Oh well : ) Ya know...maybe I'l hear from Curt tonight. Yes that would be good. His birthday was yesterday. (Lucky duck..I want my birthday to be 3/11..hehehe) I wonder if he liked his present?? I hope so. : )

Well, my 311 day wasn't too exciting, but oh well. I did spend all day listening to 311's albums....that was sort of my 'tribute' to them. There is a rumor that the Warped Tour will be coming to Fresno, and 311 *could* be there. I am on pins and needles waiting for it to be confirmed..hehe. I want to see 311 again so bad. : ) Plus there will be other cool bands there. If not..maybe they'll come back when they do their own tour.

I am sort of proud of myself. I did study for Bio and I did finish my stats homework. Took me hours but I got it done, and I worked on Art History. So I got quite a bit done. But I certainly could have done more.

I think for the rest of this semester, I am going to be pretty busy. I've got projects and most of all I need to get hours done for Film. I'm up to 4 I think. Last semester was so much easier ; ). But I might be getting a lot more with what Rick has in mind, so we'll see. Anyhoo...I need to get going..have a good Monday. : )

HAPPY 311 DAY!!!! Get it?? The date is 3/11..311..yeah I'm sure you do...hehehe

I am so irritated!! Okay, this afternoon I go to turn on my monitor and when I do..I hear this 'fizzing' noise. I was like 'wtf is going on?' It turns out the power switch on my monitor shorted out. But what irritates me the most is that this is the second monitor from Emachines that I have had problems with. On my originial monitor that came w/ my computer, I had a short in the power button and it wouldn't stay on. So I had to send my monitor to Emachines and they sent me a new one. Now this 'new' one's power button has shorted out completely and it won't even come on..grrrrrrrrrrr. My dad is going to ask a guy at his work if he can fix it. I know I will never buy an Emachines again. And what is worse is I am having to use my old 13" monitor : (. But I guess I should be happy I have a monitor to use. I just want a new computer...I wish I were rich..

Once again, I have a bad headace : (. I just got home about 45 min. ago and in about 30 min. I have to make my way back to school so I can help edit. Ugh..I really don't want to. Rick is really making us work this semester. So far, my day as been pretty good. I got a test back today that I did really good on. It was a take home test but still..it'll bring up my grade. : )

Do you ever find yourself wanting to talk to a friend about something that is bothering you, but you shy away cause you don't like confrontation and you don't want to make them mad?? I am in a situation like that right now. I am so afraid to have someone mad at me, that I sometimes find myself 'tip-toeing' around them, so I don't make them mad. Truly, one thing I don't really like about myself...and I am currently trying to work on that. I'm trying to find a way to bring up what is bothering me, without sounding mean or that I am 'attacking' them or bringing it up out of the blue. All I really want to do is give them my opinion, which we all have rights to, but I am still afraid my friend and I will have our first arguement. I had a chance the other night to voice my opinion, but I shyed away, as usual. This is something that as been bothering me for a few days now. It's not like it bother's me every second of the day, but when I think about it, that is when it bothers me. Hmm..I guess a real friend would respect another for giving an opinon..I dunno. Am I making sense? I know I am rambling..hehe. But it does help to write things out.

Well, after reading that, I know it's probably confusing, but oh well. I feel a little better. : ) Unfortuneately, I need to get going. It's going to be a loooooooooong evening. Have a good one all. : )

Life is good...I just had Subway for lunch..yum, yum. I have gotten very little accomplished today..so far anyways. Well, I did work on some math this morning before class, but it took me an hour to do 4 problems, so basically I am still behind. And I should be doing homework now, but I figured I would write a little first. ; ) I really don't want to go to my Bio class tonight, but I don't want to miss class either. If I miss class, I am screwed. That is what I get for taking Bio at night..oh well. Enough of my complaining. It was a beautiful day, for once. It was so nice to see the sun. I hope this weekend is as beautiful as today was. Oh yeah, I saw Wiz today..but he was faaaar away, but I still saw him. Maybe one day he'll be close enough to where I can at least say hi...hehe. Alright, I'm going to do homework now..woohoo! Have a good rest of the day. : )

Well, after asking Merc like 5 times about how to get here, here I am.. : ). (Thanks again Merc.) I have quite the headache tonight. I think a lot of it is sinus..ya know..all those trees blooming. Ugh, I hate it. Sure, it's pretty, but my sinuses go nuts when that happens.
Lately, I have been feeling a little discouraged. I am beginnging to wonder if what I want to do for a career(i.e. video editing) is going to be worth the trouble of actually TRYING to get into that profession. I am wondering if I even need to go to school for this. Of course, leave it to my film class to put these silly thoughts in my head. Then again, maybe it doesn't take much to get an editing job..I have no idea. I mean I really want to do this...but I'm not sure if it would be worth the hassle or if I want to deal with the hassle. I guess if I am having doubts, I need to examine how much I really want to do this huh? Opinions?? Anyone?? hehe j/k. That has been one of the many things on my mind. Maybe that is why I have a headache...too much going on. *sigh* Oh well, I don't imagine life is gonna get any easier, so I might as well suck it up and deal with it. There is a bunch more I could talk about, but I really need to go and do some homework before I get any more behind than I already am. Hmm..maybe I will get a phone call tonight from a certain someone. That would sure cheer me up and make what is left of this day very good. ; )

Woohoo! My first blog...and it all looks kinda confusing.. : ). Oh well, I imagine it will get it eventually. But for now..I am going to be a good girl and go to bed. Well, at least get off of the computer..I cannot guarantee that I will actually be in bed anytime soon. I will get off the computer and page Curt(I will talk about him at another time *grins*) But for now, night all and have pleasant dreams.