Ugh..can we say hot? Icky..blah.

Sugar Ray has a song on their new album called Stay On which features Nick Hexum from 311. It's a pretty good song. Nick's and Mark McGrath's voices sound good together. It's kind of a reggae type song. I like it, so check it out if ya so desire. But, for some reason, I don't picture Weezer and Sugar Ray together..I think I am gonna have to check that one out.

Btw, FeistyChicken looks good..I like it. : )

I had a fun evening..just hung out w/my best friend, which doesn't happen very often anymore. Hey, we might even do it tomorrow too!! *Faints from shock* ; )

Lately I have been thinking about how I could change my life. Truth is I am sick of the norm. I want a change but I am not sure where to start. Part of me is eager for my life to go in another direction and the other part of me is scared to death. As a whole, I don't take change very well...not at all. Change scares me. So I am constantly fighting a battle with myself on if I should change or just stick with status quo.

In about a year I am not planning on being here. Hopefully I will be somewhere in Southern Cali. going to school. This is something that excites me and I can't wait to do, but then again, it scares me cause it is a big move. And of course I worry about everything: how am I going to pay for this, how am I going to manage in a big city all by myself my first time away from home, what if this, what if that...ugh..it's stressful. And I know a year is pretty far away, but I need to get the ball rolling on this stuff now...and in all honesty I am afraid to. I am not a strong person and it is tough for me to take a stand in my own life and say, 'hey I am going to do this and Nothing is going to stop me.' Maybe, so far in my life, nothing has motivated me enough to do that. Maybe that is what I need..some good motivation. Anyone got some extra they'd like to get rid of?

"On the scales of desire your absence weighs more than someone else's presence." ~ 311, Uncalm

Ya know, as I sit here everyday and read blogs, I have come to realize that right now everyone, or almost everyone seems to be doing something new and different with their life. I applaud Merc, Wiz, Ong, Claire, Sol, and Kim. I admire each and every one of you for your strength on daring to do something different with your lives and moving away from the norm. You guys possess the strength I can only dream having.

I got some 311 news!!!
*ahem*

311's new album, From Chaos debuted at # 10 on Billboard's Top 200 Charts! They sold roughly 83,000 copies of From Chaos in the first week.

~AND~

Their single, You Wouldn't Believe is # 9 on Billboard's Modern Rock Radio Chart!
I am so proud of my boys!! ; )

I was really shocked tonight when I looked at Merc's blog that he posted what I said in CC about 311. I guess since he posted it, he agrees..lol I dunno.

Anyways....congrats to Merc and Wiz on the apartment! I'm really happy for ya guys!

I am feeling much better today...yesterday I didn't feel good at all..esp. last night. : )
I stopped in but no one was home. Too bad...I am bored too. ; )

I am apart of a 311 mailing list...ya know where people send messages and everyone on that list gets that message. It is pretty cool and there is always some conversation going on. Well, usually when people on the list go to concerts, they will write a review and send it to the list, so other 311 fans can read it. So, last night I decided to do that..I wrote a review complete w/the setlist and everything. So tonight I get online and I check my mail and the bassist from 311 wrote me back about my review!! I was like kick ass..lol. P-nut's (the bassist) mom is on the list and usually when people send reviews or anything good, she will forward messages to the members of 311, and a lot of the time P-nut will send messages to people or the list through his mom. I was just shocked, he has written me before, but I had asked a question, so I was kind of expecting a response, but this time it was a surprise....and basically he said that they would be back in Central Cali. for a regular 2 hour show..and I about fell out of my chair! ; ) Anyways, the highlight of my day...

Oh yeah, I'm glad Ong likes her flowers! : )

"Whoa...amber is the color of your energy."

Well, I got back from the Warped Tour about 8pm and oh my freaking goodness. I have a lot to say so here goes..lol:

First of all, this morning, while getting dressed, I did the whole 'hide the camera in the clevage' thing (got that saying from Merc) and while I was doing that, I hit the button on the camera, so I have a nice shot of the inside of my bra..lol. I was like, "geez, Amanda, You are such a dork." ; )

So then, I am on my way to Fresno(bout 40 mi. from here) and I am not quite halfway there when I hear on the radio that they are selling tickets at the door. I was so mad! lol So I didn't have to go by myself but oh well, it was too late then.

Once I got there, I wasn't searched..So I really didn't have to hide my camera, so I went to the bathroom, and took it out and put it in my purse. Then I found my way to 311's booth and found out that they weren't going on until like 6pm (which I got there at 1pm) so I had 5 hours to kill. But while i was at 311's booth, I did pick me up 5 stickers *grins*. And I put one on my shirt to everyone knew who I was representin..cause ya know, I gots to represent..lol ; ) Sorry..ghetto moment there...*ahem*

Anyways, so I roamed and sat and roamed and sat for like 5 hours..lol. OMG I couldn't believe the prices on the things there...a bottle of water was $3.00. So after my 311 stickers and the water, I was down to $4.00 to eat something and drink. Luckily I found some 'free water'. Sure it wasn't as cold as the bottled but when you are thristy, water is water. So I filled my water bottle up twice and then bought me some fries, which were $3.00...so I came home with $1 to my name..lol.

So about 30-40min before 311 was to go on, I made my way into the crowd and I got a pretty good spot. : ) A little closer than I was for last year's 311 concert..And when 311 FINALLY came out..geez, it was just amazing. I had a good spot in the crowd so my pictures should have come out really good..and OMG...after the second song..Nick had his shirt off, so for the majority of the set, he was half naked..lol. (That's the way I like to think of it. : Þ) Yeah, he took his shirt off right before Beautiful Diaster..which is MY song..lol..so I felt kinda special..lol. Seriously though, they played a great set and you all know I am not about the looks of the band..so please don't think that. While I was in the crowd, I even managed to write down the setlist...they played 9 songs total, which includes 2 new songs. I just had a lot of fun and I was just rocking out. I think if Merc or Wiz were to have seen me, they'd be shocked at how much I got in to the music...lol.

Another band I really enjoyed was The Vandals. They were awesome. I had only heard one song by them, and this was my first time seeing them, so I am seriously thinking about getting their cd.

So anyways, all and all, I had a fun day..311 was freaking awesome and my ears are still ringing. Definitely worth the 5 hour wait to see them..even though they only played 30 min. and I was by myself. ; )

I watched a really good movie tonight. It's called 28 Days. It stars Sandra Bullock and, um, well, I don't know the names of the other people..lol. But it was really good. It's just a movie about fighting addiction basically, but it's good. I liked it. Plus it gave me something to do on a Saturday night.

Well, I went out and bought my disposable camera, so I think I am ready for tomorrow. I got a disposable camera, cause that way if they search me and find it or if I get caught with it, I wouldn't have to give them my good camera. Cause who knows what they do w/them. So hopefully I get some good pics and stuff. I guess I will be back to report on the concert. : ) Dude..I am gonna see 311!!! Ahh yeah baby...

Well, after much effort, my friend and I found out that indeed Warped Tour is sold out. So I am for sure flying solo. But ya know what?? That's okay. I am going to go, have a good time and see my fav. band (OMG) and it's just gonna be sweet. NOW the only thing that isn't really cool is my dad has to take me...grrr. I still can't drive on the freeway so yeah I have no choice..lol. But hell, if I am lucky, maybe I'll run into someone I know. ; )

I am very bummed. Looks like I will be going to Warped Tour by myself. I went to buy a ticket for a friend and it seems they are sold out. Well, at least at the little ticket machine, but as far as I know you can still buy them at Fresno State. Which I really wish we could just go a get her a ticket, but there's no real way w/o someone going out of there way, cause Fresno is like an hour away. I just really wanted my friend to go...I mean it was someone to share the fun with and now it's not gonna happen and I will have no one to share my fun with. : ( *Sigh* Oh well, I should just be quiet and think "You are going to have fun." But it still isn't the same as going w/a friend or two.

Hmm..if only Merc would have posted a minute earlier... ; )

Oh I did want to say that yesterday I finally got to have a real time conversation with Claire! It was really nice to get to talk to her. : )

I had fun watching Pi. Though I must admit I was lost throughout most of the movie. ; ) But it was interesting, none the less. It was really cool to see Wiz too. I hadn't seen him in a while. : )

I am also glad to hear that Ong is doing good.

So far my day was wound up being 10 times better than yesterday. Hanging out w/friends always makes me feel so much better. ; )

Wow..I look back at what I wrote last night and I am actually shocked at myself. I think it helped a little to post that..I feel a lot better today.

I guess I kind of want to apologize for posting what I did last night. Cause I was not looking for sympathy or anything. And I don't want people to think that. I used the blog as an outlet to say something cause I had no one to talk to.

I really need to talk to someone, but as of this moment, I don't know of anyone who would understand me. I mean that's kind of a bad feeling, thinking no one can understand you. I have my options of people to talk to, but they are people who have heard the same shit from me for the last couple of months...I just don't know what to do. I honestly feel I have no one to go to. And I don't purposely go to them w/the same stuff, but the same stuff keeps coming up and I don't know how to resolve any of it. I mean I guess I know how to ultimately resolve it, but it's hard. Of course, I guess I could type out what is buggin me on here, but I need to physically talk to someone. To top that off, I also a have recent problem that I am very worried about. :' ( ......Whoo....Sometimes I put on a great facade.

College club is really ticking me off...which, actually, isn't anything new. I am trying to get rid of this picture in my profile and for some stupid reason, it is not going away..grrr...lol. Perhaps I am doing something wrong..I don't know. Wait...woohoo! It finally worked. : )

Okay, so I've been sitting here for 5 min. and I can't find a thing to say. I am not feeling to well tonight, I am tired among other things. I just want it all to be over. It's been going on for way too long. ; )

"From Chaos comes clarity." ~ 311, From Chaos I love that line. Btw, that is from the song From Chaos. Actually there a lot of new 311 quotes on this album..hehe.

Alright...let me just say: Oh my freaking god!!! The new 311 album is kick ass. It totally takes me back to the blue album w/the rapping, the music, and the melodic songs. I can not say enough. I will tell you, it was well worth the wait. Just awesome! Good going 311! Sorry I dont' have a 'logical' and well written review, but right now I am still coming off of the excitement of the new album, just trust me, it is finger lickin good...wait..it's shoe shoppin good...no it's 'I'd like to thank the academy' good...no wait..it's so good I am actually in pain. (Hopefully you have seen this commercial on tv, cause if you haven't, I sound like a complete dork.)

*Sigh* Another good conversation w/Curt this afternoon. A complete surprise phone call..which he mentioned he likes to do. But I am just so surprised right now cause he bought the new 311 album and he is going to Warped Tour (just like I am) and he is going to only see 311! I am just shocked because a while back he mentioned he really wasn't into 311 and now he is. I just think it is so damn cool. Gosh! I love the guy! lol ; ) I should tell him he should come here on Sunday to see the show w/me..hehe.

Ooh, it's someone's birthday today!! He's 23!


Happy Birthday Garfield!!!!

OH yeah baby...311 - From Chaos TOMORROW!!!! AHH!!! ; ) . Sorry, I shall try to contain my excitement. I wanted to post a pic of the cover, but the only one I could find to link to was huge and Merc is out of town so he can't post a pic for me..lol. Oh well ; ). In about 12 or so hours I will have 311's new album in my hot little hands!! Woohoo...can't wait!

Yummm...animal crackers are so good! I remember eating these when I was a wee one..they are just as good now as they were then ; )

Happy Birthday, Paul McCartney I couldn't find an official site on just him. : )

Right now I adore Curt more than ever. He called me last night at 1:30am and woke me up(which I didn't mind at all). I hadn't heard from him for about 2 weeks, between his work hours and plus I was out of town last weekend. Usually when I dont' hear from him in a while and I finally get to talk to him, one of the first things out of my mouth is "I missed you." Well, last night, we did the typcial 'Hi, how are you, etc.' and then the next thing out of his mouth was "I missed you." I was so overwhelmed. I don't know what it was..maybe it was the way he said it? I have no clue, but it's like when he said it, I just kinda fluttered inside. Then, after we talked a little, he said "I love you." Out of nowhere. Once again, I am the one who might do that once in a while, but he did it. It's weird...he has no idea how much I needed/wanted to hear that. I mean it's more than just the words "I miss you" and "I love you." It is so much more. It's the way he said it, the feelings behind it...everything. Another thing he did was he knew I was going to the doctor, and he remembered and asked me what the doctor said. I went to the doctor about 2 weeks ago and I am surprised he remembered. That really meant a lot to me. Plus the fact that he called me at 1:30am, desite working 9 days straight, with not a lot of sleep, and him not feeling too hot. I don't know...it's little things like that just overwhelm(sp) me...and make me love him even more.

2 days until From Chaos

Ugh..I am frustrated..I just want to whine!!! But I guess a 19 year old girl who whines isn't too attractive huh? On one side of the coin I am happy and on the other side I am frustrated. I guess if I try not to think about what is making me frustrated, then I should be a'ight. There's nothing I can do anyways.

Hmm..I just realized that I am not listening to any music...let's see what's on...Okay, is it me or is this new Tool song getting rammed down your throat??? *sigh* Tool and NIN are in the same category...all of their songs sound the same. There may be one or two exceptions but for the most part, they sounds the same. (Btw, I am not saying that Tool and NIN sound the same..I am saying all Tool songs sound the same and all of NIN songs sound the same.) This is all in my own opinion though and I am sure there are those out there who would argue w/me.

"I get by with a little help from my friends." ~ The Beatles

3 days until From Chaos

Speaking of cars..I saw a car today in a parking that I swear looked like people just got cans of paint and just splashed the paint all over the car, at random, and just let it dry. It had spots of a light purple, lime green, white, yellow, and I have no clue what other colors...I just found that interesting. I was like 'why?'

Alright, so I did something I thought I would NEVER do...and that is vote for a video on TRL. Yes, I admit it, I voted for a video. BUT only one band would make me do this..one band..and if you know me at all, you know what band it was. But ya know, 311 could use the exposure..sure it might mean little girls saying "OMG can you please play 311's video 'You Wouldn't Believe' cause the lead singer is so hot!!" Which is a true statment, but they need to be recognized for their music, NOT their looks..their looks are like an extra..lol. So yeah, w/any luck they might be on there. I want to support them in any way and if that means voting on TRL, then so be it. ; )

I turned in 6 applications today and you will all be glad to hear that I did not hurt myself or the car in anyway ; ). I was thinking today: I wonder what Merc would do if I hurt my car..but then again I dunno if he'd do anything, since he's got such a hot car himself ; )

4 days until From Chaos

Finally finished filling out 7 appliactions and I still have about 4 or 5 more. I hate filling out those things..the same questions over and over and over. So tomorrow, I will take them back and hopefully my phone will start ringing..; ) I can only hope.

Hmm...I don't get Merc's Cake quote.

Oops! I forgot something ; )

5 days until From Chaos

Okay, so anyone who lives around here should be glad that I am sitting here in front of the computer and no longer on the road. I have no idea what happened, but geez, I was driving like crap today. I hit 2 curbs when making right turns, I was turning left into a parking lot and I didn't use the turn lane (the people behind me were probably like 'hello! there's a turn lane!'), and I drove in circles(on Mooney) cause I couldn't figure out where certain places were. I hope I am just having a 'rusty' day. Cause, ya know, it has been about 1-2 weeks since I have driven. I think I will stay in for the rest of the day...for the safety of myself and others..lol.

The reason I was on the road today was to get some job applications, and I got quite a few. Some who are hiring right now and some who keep appliacations on file. So, I am going to fill those out tonight and return them tomorrow and hopefully I get some calls back. I am just looking for some kind of retail job. I've done the office work thing and I am not looking for a career, just a job to earn money.

Here is a pic of my cousin! Isn't she so cute??? I think so..hehehe. Again her name is Jessica and she just turned 8 months. : )



I am finding myself in a weird mood tonight. Like a hyper/tired/not afraid to say anything mood. These moods don't come around very often. And then the next day, I feel dumb for being so silly. Oh well.

Tomorrow I am going 'job huntin'. Geez, I hope there are some people hiring. I will go more nuts if I sit at home all summer. Wish me luck. : )

6 days until From Chaos

All I can say, is that I totally agree. It's easier said than done.

Woohoo!! I am back?? Miss me? I am sure you did. ; ) Actually, someone noticed I was gone. *smiles*

This weekend I went to my cousin's wedding. I left Friday, the wedding was Saturday and I came home yesterday. I really enjoyed myself, and I am glad I went. My cousin's wedding was really nice. The actual ceremony part was only like 6 min. (I know cause I videotaped it). I was like, 'geez, that is a short wedding!' Then, of course, was the reception....the best lasagna I've ever had, good cake, good music..I found a new Doors song that I like courtesy of the DJ...The Alabama Song. I love it..I can't stop listening to it. ; )

This weekend, I also got to see 2 cousins of mine that I'd haven't met.. One is Wes, who is going to be 2 in Oct..and one is Jessica, who is 8 months. They are soooooooo adorable! It was so funny, I swear everyone at my cousin's wedding reception held her at least once! She was passed around to everyone! She is definitely a people baby..hehe. And she is just so cute. *sigh*. I hope I have a cute kid like that. ; )
I'll scan her pic and put it up either later or tomorrow..gotta ask Merc to help me.

Oh yeah..I did something stupid last night. I thought I would be smart by unpacking last night, so I wouldn't have to worry about it today...well, I pulled out the top drawer in my dresser to put some clothes away...well, I pulled it out too far and the drawer fell and broke. So now I am using my suitcase to hold the clothes that were in my top dresser drawer. I am such a dork. The drawer probably wouldn't have broken if my dresser wasn't so old. I think my dad told me that it was about 100 years old..seriously.

Let's see, I got online this afternoon at about 2:30pm and I had 176 e-mails in my yahoo addy...and like 75 in my collegeclub addy..and I am still not done reading them all! The ones in my yahoo addy are mostly from a few mailing lists..mainly the 311 one I belong too. And collegeclub is just jokes and stuff. I hardly ever get actual 'personal' e-mails..lol. No one loves me. :'( hehe

OMG!!!!!! Thursday night (6/7) I stayed up and watched videos like I said I would and guess what?? That's right! I saw 311's new video! I about drooled when I saw Nick on the screen...oh my goodness...let me just say he looked GOOD. I just wanted to update you on the 311 video situation ; )

Okay, I think that is all for now..lol. If I happen to remember anything, I shall post it. Oh and I will get a picture of my cousin up too. ; ) Merc, I hope you had good luck this weekend. : )

7 days until From Chaos

Ugh! I am so frustrated, but in a good way...I am sure that doesn't make sense, but I'm sure it will once I explain it. Of course, it is nothing 'drastic', but apparently 311's new video premiered on MTV and I missed it!! :'(. I guess not even 311's management knew about it, or else they would have told us. The management tells the fans everything. SOOOO, looks like I am staying up tonight to watch videos so I can catch it, hopefully anyways...See, told ya it wasn't drastic. ; )

Haha! I'd love to do PR for 311! Oh my what a job that would be! I might get to meet them...*school girl sigh* LOL ; )

I'm sure a lot of you think "Geez, is 311 all she can talk about??" No, but that was the news of this afternoon. I do need to start packing. I have my cousin's wedding to go to this weekend and I am leaving tomorrow morning. I hate packing...but even worse..unpacking. I need to do laundry, straighten up my room, all that fun stuff.

12 days until From Chaos
P.S. Wish me luck on seeing 311's new video tonight. ; )

Boy, I feel like yacking up a storm today, but the only problem with that is: Nothing to say ; ). I had to go 'give' blood for a blood test this morning. And you know what?? It hurt! In all the times I've had certain blood tests it never hurt, but when that lady but the needle in my arm, I felt like smacking her it hurt so bad..lol. Anyways...

I am really tired today. I woke up from a nap at 1:30 and then took a shower. I was hoping the shower would give me a *burst!* of energy, but nope. Now I just want to lay back down in my bed cause I am squeaky clean and go back to sleep.

I have decided to put start counting down until 311's new album comes out..lame?? Yes. But do I care?? No. lol ; ) Speaking of 311, Claire seems to be liking 311. Which really just makes me happy, cause I have never turned anyone on to 311. *pats self on back.* Oh, and speaking of 311, I heard this on the news yesterday..Apparently in Cali, they are trying to 'free' up the 911 emergency lines, because some times people call when their problem isn't a real emergency. So they are trying to pass a bill to where you would dial '311' for all non-emergencies, such as disturbances, nuisances, etc, instead of dialing '911' for such things. I thought that was pretty cool. ; )

Oh yeah...
13 days until From Chaos

I am feeling really confused about a few things in my life right now. For some reason, I just have this uneasiness inside me and I am not sure how to get it to go away. It's like when you have something eating and eating at you..it's not the kind of eating at you where you feel like you could explode if you don't 'release it', but it is different. I don't know, it is hard to explain. This reminds me of quote:

"In the book of life, the answers aren't in the back." ~Charlie Brown

What a lazy day. *sigh* It is the type of day where you should be outside doing something...it really turned out to be a beautiful day. And what am I doing? I am sitting here on the internet and watching a movie, (The movie btw, is Indian Summer. A really good movie.), and drinking a Pepsi.

I spent about 3-4 hours watching the NASCAR race today...Damn Jeff Gordon won. I don't like him. Turned out my fav. guy wrecked like the 2nd lap of the race. Oh well, there is always next week. ; )

I went to the mall w/my best friend last night. That was fun. It was nice to be able to hang out w/her. I basically watched her spend money..lol. Someday I will have $$ to spend. hehe ; ).

So, I talked to Curt last night(woohoo!) and he has no idea who Brad is..sooooo, yeah. We don't know if his AIM account got deleted and someone thought of the exact s/n or if someone is actually using his. Oh well. Looks like I 'freaked' for nothing. That's nothing new with me..lol

Congrats on making member of the day Claire! Somehow I missed reading your blog for like 2 days! I sorry. I think I have gotten messages from the 'foot fetish' guy. I can't remember his CC name right now but he's IMed me twice and I was just like 'okay.' lol