Happy New Year's, everyone! Have fun and be safe! *hugs*

Music: Live - Deep Enough

Heh..I like that... Miss 311. ; ) Very good design Claire...I like it a lot. : ) Between you and Merc, there's a lot of talent. ; )

i finished terms of endearment last night. over 400 pages in less than a week. it was a really good book. i can't decide which is better, the book or the movie. i watched the movie first, so i was expecting some things and characters to be in the book that were in the movie but they weren't, and vice-versa. the movie is still really good, as is the book. though, the book seemed to rush towards the end, and i didn't quite understand why it did that. the ending does set you up for the sequel; the evening star. i want to go and buy it and read it..i saw it at borders for $6.99, but I really should save my money to pay my bmg bill. i got 4 cds: 2 for me and 2 for my parents for christmas. i got no doubt's return of saturn which is really good and the beatles f/tony sheridan, in the beginning. it's a really good album.

i think i'm going to start doing something that LiveJournal does. I really like how LiveJournal has you put in what music you're listening to and what not, so I think i'm gonna do that, for the fun of it...when i remember that is..hehe. ; )

music: no doubt - marry me

I hope everyone's Christmas was fun and eventful. Mine was nice. Santa brought me a portable cd player (w/the car adapter and a remote control), Trivial Pursuit, and some NASCAR stuff. It was a nice Christmas. I especially enjoy the cd player. I think I am going to cut this short..I'm having a hard time typing cause my hands are so cold..lol. ; )

Well, yesterday was an interesting day. It started off very sad. My dad and I were going to go finish up some christmas shopping for my mom when we noticed that there was a railroad crossing blocked off and there was all kinds of cops and people around. So we went to my mom's work, which is right across the street from the railroad crossing where all of the commotion was going on. We went inside and my mom said a little boy, 2 years old, got hit by a train. There is a car wash right by the tracks and apparently a mother was vacuuming her car out and the 2 year old wandered too close to the tracks. The paper today said the boy was hit by the front of the train and it was hard to tell how far the body was thrown. When my dad and I were at my mom's work, there was a yellow tarp laying up against the train where the boy's body was. how sad is that? right before christmas. i just hope the little guy didn't feel any sort of pain...i'll tell you, god works in such mysterious ways. i will never understand. : (

Most of my afternoon and evening consisted of fighting crowds and traffic. i do not know why my parents insist on waiting until the last days before christmas to get stuff done....it's like this every single year..lol. habit i guess. ; ) probably wouldn't feel like christmas if we didn't do that. : )

it's funny, i was just telling my mom yesterday at the store, 'i was hoping that i would have heard from fullerton by now.' well, today, i got a letter from fullerton and i was accepted!!!!! Yay!! I'm so happy. : ) i was kinda worried, cause you never know what might happen...but i am happy. this is awesome...and scary all at the same time. heh

well, everyone out there have a great christmas! : ) and remember....



Now, i know what you're thinking...garfield again?? : Þ

Last night my friends and i did our little gift exchange....I got a caress bath set which included bodywash, body lotion, body spray, and a pouf, all in a nice carrying case; some Sees candy; a garfield brush, candy and bracelet; and a book, which I have already read 130 pages of. the book i got was terms of endearment. whenever i read, i always forget how nice it is to sit down, cover up with a blanket and just read. i rarely read for pleasure. mainly because i read when the mood hits me but also because i am always required to read for school and i just don't feel like reading for pleasure after having to read for school. I'd really like to do more reading. it's good for the mind and soul. : )

Yesterday i spent my day playing martha stewart. i went christmas shopping and then i came home, baked some chocolate chip cookies and wrapped presents, and then i spent most of the evening, until about 10pm baking cookies, making rice krispy treats and decorating muffins...it was fun. ; )

On another note...this semester is over!!! *and* i finished off this semester with 2 a's and 1 b. I'm really happy about that. : ) now i have to figure out what to do for a month...heh. I see many boring days in my future.

Feel better Merc.

Well, I just got done decorating our christmas tree and I have to admit, it is one the best looking in a few years. ; ) We didn't do anything fancy: just some lights and some red, white, and blue candy canes. (<---look what i figured out! : Þ) Behind the star, I stuck an american flag on one of the limbs, so I think it looks pretty cool...and patriotic. ; ) Nothing like getting a tree up the week before christmas huh??

Funny thing happened to me this evening. I was helping my parents carring in groceries from the car and my dad said my phone was ringing. So i ran into the house and when i picked up my phone, there was silence and then some girl screamed: "jack please don't be mad at me!!!!" and then more silence. So I said "hello" and no one answered. I thought that was kinda weird.

I have one more final (yay!) and it's over. ; ) Woooooooo!

Sometimes I swear only stupid shit happens to me. First of all my portable cd player sucks...for a while everytime i put batteries in it, one of the batteries would get hot and i've been told that maybe there's a short somewhere in the cd player. so i take my cd player with me to school today and i take it out of my backpack and it was warm to the touch and i looked at the batteries and one of the batteries was so hot you couldn't even touch it and the outside covering of the battery was expanding and splitting apart...and if that wasn't enough, the battery was so hot it melted the battery slot it was in. sooooo, i'm pretty sure my cd player is useless now. i do have a power adapter but that's kind of pointless to have when it's a portable cd player.
Then, a few min. ago, I thought i'd listen to 311's new album, so I stick it in my stereo and it gets to track 7 and when the song is almost done it just starts skipping and then it played and then it started skipping again...actually what it was doing was like when a record is playing and the needle gets stuck and it repeats the same thing over and over...that's what the cd was doing. so i took it out of the cd player and looked at it and i swear there is a dent in my cd. it's a little 'nick' right in the cd. and i have no freaking idea how that happened. so needless to say i am pissed. oh wait..now track 8 doesn't want to play... :( man...this is one of my fav. cds..what the hell. looks like i'll be needing another copy of from chaos.

I took the $30 I got from selling my political science books back and got 311's new home video, etsd2 (enlarged to show detail). This one was a full 2 hours, where the first was only an hour. It also came with a cd w/six bonus tracks...all of the songs basically kick ass. Especially i'll be here awhile acoustic. : ) that song is just beautiful acoustic. I have to admit though, I think i like the 1st one better. I kinda don't like the way the 2nd one was put together. *Some* of the editing looked a little rough (not that I could do better), but it did have good graphics and stuff. I don't know, maybe I just need to watch it a few more times so it can grow on me. Not that it sucks or anything...it's 311, it can't suck. ; )

I can not tell you how I *wish* I could step outside my body and look at what is going on in my life. It's so hard to see everything objectively, when in your own mind and heart you have 'blindspots'. i want to feel so badly that i am not wasting my time and that i haven't been wasting my time..ugh..i don't know...
anything and everything that is bugging me right now is my own fault, because somehow i was not born w/the desire to stand up for myself and voice my opinion. i'm always so damn afraid of pissing someone off or sounding like a bitch. maybe it's cause i'm so sensitive myself...maybe that's why i'm so 'careful' with people...how does a person change this? how can someone learn not to be so damn sensitive? that is my problem...i need to fix that someway, somehow. i can not go through the rest of my life like that...in the long run i'd never be happy.
i have this fear of being alone...maybe that is why i am wanting to hold on to what i have, even if it isn't much in someone else's eyes. what i have is more than i've ever had and it seems like a lot to me, it honestly does. but at the same time i know i am not treating myself fairly nor am i getting what i guess i deserve.
i just want things to change and the only one who can do that is me, I can't depend on other people to make me happy all the time...if only i could get that through my thick little skull.
one of these days i'm going to reach my limit and i will change things, i will deal with all that i need to deal with. all i can do is hope that limit is coming up soon, which i think it is. the limit may be high enough right now to where i can start to deal with things. i'll just have to see. *sigh*

btw, if this makes no sense, i am sorry...i'm using the blog to write and figure things out. so forgive me if you don't understand it.

I went to this christmas play last night at my best friend's church. It was called the christmas post and it was really good. kind of got me more into the spirit of christmas time, so i thought i'd post this comic...gotta love the big, orange kitty. ; )
well, i can't post the picture cause it's being stupid, so here: have a link.

Well, I have had an interesting day so far...
Monique and I are walking to my car this afternoon to go home and i try to open the trunk to put our backpacks in and the little keypad thingy for the car isn't working. I'm thinking maybe it's cause i have gloves on and i'm not hitting the button hard enough, so I open the trunk the old fashioned way (ya know by sticking the key in the keyhole ; ) ). So then I go to unlock the doors w/the keypad thingy and that doesn't work either, so i'm thinking 'what the hell is going on?' Once I open my door i notice i left the freaking headlights on. what is weird about this situation is that normally if the lights are left on and you take the key out of the ignition and then open the car door, the doorbell rings so you know the lights are on and i don't remember hearing that this morning..then again I was in a rush so maybe that is why. so anyways, i called my daddy (hehe) and he came to my school on his lunch hour to jump the car. i felt so bad cause i know he hasn't been feeling good and i don't think he got a chance to eat or anything. But i have come to the conclusion that this is what Monique and i get for kinda making fun of people who leave their lights on. we always used to say, 'we should leave a note saying they left their lights on.' so needless to say, we're not going to do that anymore. : )

Yet, another one stolen from Brian.
I am bored..forgive me. : )

Number of times I have been in love: None
Number of times I have had my heart broken: 2 or 3
Number of hearts I have broken: 1 or 2 maybe..not on purpose
Number of boys I have kissed in my life: N/C
Number of girls I have kissed: None
Number of continents I have visited: The one I live on
Number of drugs taken illegally: Well cigarettes aren't illegal but I had them under the age..does that count??
Number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: hmm..6 maybe
Number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: mainly 3, but once in a while I hear from others
Number of cd's that I own: 120+ (including burned ones)
Number of piercings: None
Number of tattoos: None
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: I dunno..It was in the paper for honor roll during HS and for graduation
Number of scars on my body: One on my lip, a few little ones on my chin(flew off of a merry go round when I was little..that's what I'm told anyways), other than that, no prominent ones
Number of people that has made me scared of what they could do to me physically: Umm...Hmm...Not
Number of things in my past that I regret: A few
Number of times I've taken this damn survey over the years: This is the first time. : )

There's been a few things I've meant to blog about lately, but i just haven't done it. : )

In all honesty, not much is going on. I did find out that i am not going to be working for the irs. Figures..I give them 8 hours of my time and i am ineligible. i think i may have gotten my hopes up too high about this job. i was almost certain i'd be considered for a job. oh well..back to the ol drawing board as wylie coyote would say.

My friend Monique is moving. : ( In a few weeks, after finals, she'll be moving to Canoga Park, CA to live with her brother. I am really bummed. I do think that moving down there will be good for her, but she's my hanging out buddy. we've gotten a lot closer in the past year or so and i'm really going to miss her. but hey, maybe if i go to school in fullerton, we'll get to see eachother once in while. i don't think fullerton and canoga park are that close to eachother...i need to check it out.

anyhoo..i need to work on 2 essays..one for that concert i went to and my scholarship essay, which is going to be the hardest one. i've gotta make it sound good and i am not that good of a writer...but i shall try my best..i have to, i need money. ; )