Stolen from brian.

[ Name ] Manda or Amanda...
[ Birthday ] 9/17/81
[ Sex ] F
[ Location ] Central, Cali


[ Four vacations you have taken ]
1. Placerville, CA
2. Fontana, CA
3. Salt Lake City, UT
4. Washington D.C.

[ Four songs you get stuck in your head frequently ]
1. 311 - I'll Be Here Awhile
2. Linkin Park - My December
3. No Doubt - Ex-Girlfriend
4. Stand/It's the End of the World as we Know It - REM

[ Four beverages you drink frequently ]
1. Water
2. Milk
3. Pepsi or Soda in general(not pop. ; Þ)
4. Tea

[ Four tv shows that were on when you were a kid ]
1. Garfield and Friends
2. Full House
3. My Two Dads
4. Perfect Strangers

[ Four places to go in your area ]
1. Wally World (aka Walmart)
2. Visalia Mall
3. umm...Target
4. Borders

[ Four things to do when you're bored ]
1. Internet
2. Watch TV
3. Play games
4. Sleep

[ Four things that never fail to cheer you up ]
1. Friends
2. Music
3.
4.

[ Four things you can't live without ]
1. Family
2. Friends
3. Music
4.

[ About 20 years ago... ]
1. I was almost 6 months old
2. I had a brace on my leg
3. I lived in Placerville, CA
4. My brother and sister were 10 and 12

[ About 10 years ago... ]
1. I was in Mr Dargo's 5th grade class
2. I had a crush on Billy Turner
3. I met my best friend for the first time
4. I lived on "I" St.

[ About 5 years ago... ]
1. I was a Soph. in high school
2. My crush was in my english class and I was freaking out
3. I was introduced to the best band, 311
4. I moved the house I live in now

[ About 2 years ago... ]
1. I was in my first year of college and going to start my second.
2. I met Merc and Wiz for the first time. (Real Life)
3. I met Curt, therefore getting my first b/f
4. Got my driver's license

[ About 1 year ago... ]
1. Still at the same college
2. I was having my first 'difficulties' with Curt
3. I saw 311 at the Warped Tour
4. Met Brian and Chris(FJ)

[ Today... ]
1. I started writing a letter
2. I cried
3. I had some good cornbread for dinner
4.

[ Seven things you love ]
1. My family
2. My friends
3. My music(esp. 311)
4. My pets
5. Living in CA
6. Nascar (and cars in general)
7. The fact that I am alive and breathing

[ Seven things you hate ]
1. Being hurt by someone you care about
2. Not having money
3. Stupified cars
4. People telling me to get over my b/f and move on (I'm not counting you Brian or FJ, but other people)
5. Cliques
6. People who hate.
7. Creed

[ Seven things on your desk ]
1. Computer stuff
2. Toilet paper (ran out of tissues)
3. 2 phones...
4. Car keys
5. Book and notebook
6. Pictures
7. #25 Diecast Nascar

[ Seven facts about you ]
1. I'm 20
2. I'm a good friend
3. I love Garfield
4. I love James Dean
5. I'm a picky eater (hard to believe)
6. I like a wide range of music
7. I was in Band from 5th-12th grade


[ 7 songs people should give a listen ]
1. 311 - I'll Be Here Awhile
2. The Beatles - In my Life
3. Live - Deep Enough
4. Dave Matthew's Band - Satellite
5. 311 - Beautiful Disaster (that is *my* song)
6. Ravel - Bolero
7. Beethoven - Fur Elise

[ Top 7 things that turn you on about your sex of choice ]
1. Personality
2. Acceptance of who and what I am
3. Sense of humor
4. Smile/Eyes
5. Sensitivity
6. Supportive
7. Open-minded

music: 311 - You Wouldn't Believe

Take the "How immature are you?" Test

created by sami


Now, I don't buy that..I mean hang out with me..I'm not *that* mature.

music: beatles - help..."help me if you can i'm feeling down...and i do appreciate you being 'round..."

I talked to my parents yesterday about this whole college thing..I explained to them that I needed to know asap what i was doing because if I am going to pull out, i need to call fullerton and let them know as soon as I can. so we talked and my parents hate to see me not go..mainly because they are afraid that if i don't go now, then i might wind up not going. especially if i get a job and whatnot. so for the moment i am assuming that i am going and i will still send in the info. they need and once i get more housing information in the mail next month, we'll figure out what i'm going to do. and to tell the truth...i'm not sure what i want anymore.. : \

music: third eye blind - how's it gonna be

blah blah, blah blah blah..that's all i have to say.

music: grasshopper takeover - owe it to you

yesterday i was faced with the realization that i might not be going to fullerton this fall...this has crossed my mind, but i just thought maybe i was thinking and worrying too much, but i guess not. things are just really tough right now and my parents nor i are sure how we're going to come up w/the $12,000+ needed to pay for school. i just really wish i would have prepared myself better for this, but i kept telling myself that i had a long time when in reality i didn't. so here it is, sneaking up on me, and i'm not sure what to do. part of me is afraid if i decide not to go, life may not give me another opportunity for this again (i've had 2 chances counting fullerton) and then part of me doesn't want to go because i don't feel ready..but i'm sure a lot of that is just nerves. i guess i have some serious thinking to do and some serious talking to do with my parents. *sigh*

music: the beatles - run for your life

I Told Myself
by: 311

Picked up on the wrong scent
not gonna make a dent
how many times
are you in my rhymes
burn me once shame on thee
but burn me again, shame on me
I'm chasing and facing the point misplacing
when I think of you my mind's racing
I'm spacing out when I get to the point
of no return, I get burned
I told myself I'm through with you
the last thing that I'll ever do
let down my guard shoudln't be too hard
I know it's over, got to elevate, disregard

I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but

This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldnt happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wasn't going to let you back in
but here I am dialing, trying

I told myself to get a hold myself
I won't freak out, let you tweak out
on ecstacy not next to me
somethin tells me baby girl that you're testin me
I told myself to get a hold myself
and I'm tryin' I'm not lyin'
don't make me mad, you know I love you bad
I want to sniff the glue that hold me to you
I told myself to get a hold myself
but don't rush me can't you trust me
the sound I hear whenever you are near
I know it's never wrong and it's my favorite song

I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but

This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldnt happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wasn't going to let you back in
but here I am dialing, trying

And now it's all turned bad
turned bad, turned bad
your ploy to make me jealous
is obvious and sad
it has the opposite effect
now you're left with what you had
you had

The rain comes down as love turns to dust
I was joking she took me serious
the rain comed down as love turns to dust
I was joking she took me serious
yes, serious

This was the last time that I was ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
but here I am dialing, trying

Ya know, i honestly feel like f**king screaming...i'm so frustrated...w/myself, things and people in my life...i feel so worn out, which is funny cause i never do a damn thing to make myself feel worn out. it's almost like thinking makes me tired. i think i've been like this for a while, but i'm noticing it more the past few weeks...if i could..i'd walk right in the middle of my street and just scream...there's got to be a good way to let my frustration and my being hurt out besides crying...

music: 311 - Flowing

If I have learned one thing these past few days...it's that i now understand why it takes months to plan a wedding. ugh. i got this assignment in my class to make a wedding budget, and my teacher gave us a few days and it is unbelieveable the crap you need for a wedding..and expensive..oh my goodness. though i must say, i did have fun picking out rings, bridesmaid dresses and a wedding dress.

does anyone ever feel like crawling into a corner and hiding? ya know, until all the 'bad stuff' goes away? man i wish i could do that.

music: bizet - carmen suite no. 1

Lately I have been wondering how in the hell I am going to pay for school...over $12,000 for a school year...and I got a thing in the mail today saying I need $850 down by May 3rd to reserve housing for myself. So I've got about 2-3 months to get $850. That has to come out of my 'personal resources' as the postcard says. *sigh* sometimes i think it would be better if i just tried to get a job and saved up before i went...but if i did that, it would be the second time i was accepted to a college and didn't go. i know that would be a very stupid thing to do, but i'm wigging out...i do not know how i am going to get this money.

on a different note, i agree with claire, this would be better than a box of chocolates. ; )

music: watching the olympics

it's valentine's day...blah. ya know, i think the quicker this day is over, the better. ; ) (that's just for me anyways). i must say that what merc did was very sweet. : )

i was very shocked to hear about Waylon Jennings. i didn't really know a lot of his music, but my parents really liked him and from that, I knew some music.

for those who care, happy valentine's day

music: watching days of our lives

Well, I went to a play tonight at my best friend's church. It was called Heaven's Gates, Hell's Flames. It wasn't too bad. Sometimes I feel a little uncomfortable when i go to church functions with her and her family. they are practicing christians, so they are at church every week and sometimes i worry what they think of me because i am not. *shrugs* maybe i worry too much...

so yeah life kinda sucks right now...i mean on one side it is good and on the other it's just blah. i think i'm going to have break up w/curt...i don't want to really get into details (though some of you know them). you know it's funny...if i can get this attached to someone who i have never spent any physical time with or even met for that matter, what is going to happen when i get a b/f who is actually with me?? man, i don't even want to go through that...what's going on now is killing me. and of course now i'm taking the attitude of 'what's the point of having a b/f, if you're probably going to wind up breaking up anyways?' i know it's all experience, which is always great, but the pain is almost unbearable....and i'm going to quit before i start crying...

music: james brown - try me (i need you)

I found out my friend Krystal, who is pregnant, is having a boy.....everyone say it with me..'awwwwww' hehe. it never really seemed real..ya know that she was pregnant until she told me she was having a boy...and now it's like 'wow.' but i am happy for her. : )

I worked outside today with my parents...i got to clip branches into pieces so my dad could burn them. that was back breaking work, so my back hurts a little, my right butt muscle hurts(lol), and i hurt my ankle somehow. now everyone knows how out of shape i am..lol. I can't even work in the backyard for a few hours w/o hurting something.

So v-day is coming up...i normally don't mind v-day, but this year it seems to be hurting more than ever. i just hope i get a little something from someone...if not i swear i'll cry. i need to feel appreciated right now, cause i'm honestly not feeling that..from my family, some of my friends, and especially my b/f, or whatever the hell he is. *shrugs* i'll tell you, sometimes men are on my bad list..they really are...

music: lesley gore - it's my party

you know, i wish i could just get away for a few days. i wish i had the freedom to go wherever i wanted. my whole life is getting monotonous. i need to go to a place where i can get a clear mind and think. it is hard to do that in the house that you're in with a lot of influences around. even a day trip to the mountains would help i think. i would definitely want to go by myself. man, i'd love to go up to Sequoia National Park, but even Three Rivers would do. Hmm..oh well.

the last 2 days i've been addicted to this game on yahoo games called pyramids...pretty cool card game. : ) in fact, i think i'm gonna go play it. ; )

music: linkin park - my december