I am so tired today. the kitten woke me up at 3:30am, so I had to feed him and everything and I didn't get back to sleep until 5am and then he woke up again at almost 9am. i am very seriously thinking about jumping into bed very soon. ; ) as you can see, the kitten still doesn't have a name, but i have some in mind. i guess i'm kinda waiting until his personality comes through a bit more, which shouldn't be too much longer.

i mailed my resume to a company looking for a part time receptionist today. everything the ad in the paper asked for, i can do. so i *hope* i will at least get a call back. i'd only be working for a couple of months, but i need to get as much money as i can before i move to fullerton. i would also really like to thank merc for helping me out with all of this stuff...moving and finding a job when i get to fullerton. i know he's busy and yet he still helps me out. thank you merc. : ) speaking of merc, i love the new look! i've always been partial to rubber duckies. ; )

no big plans for the weekend. maybe, just maybe i will get my room cleaned. that is always an all day project...complete with dusting and vacuuming. dusting takes the most time though. i even dust every one of my cds and i've got 2 full cd towers and a 3rd that is almost full. : ) but yeah, we'll just see what happens. : Þ

Well, I've been meaning to post stuff for a few days now, so here goes. : )

I got my waiting list number from fullerton yesterday and I am number 28, which is a lot better than i thought it would be. *but* it's still kinda high. the letter said that they expect a few cancellations around june 15th (not sure why that date is important) and if i don't get offered housing shortly after june 15th, then i should look into other options. i am definitely not getting my hopes up because i seriously doubt that 28 people will cancel, but i guess i'll see.

speaking of school, i got an "A" in my marriage and family life class, so I am happy about that.. that means i got a 4.0 gpa this semester..lol. though i guess it wasn't that hard only having one class. ; )

i am still looking for a job and right now i need one badly. i applied at victoria's secret last week. that job seems perfect for me, cause they are only hiring temp (possibly part time) for this big sale they have in june, but i haven't heard from them yet, so i guess we'll see. i think tuesday or wednesday i will go out and get some more applications.

the kitten is doing fine..he's starting to play now and climb his way onto the couch. ; ) and he's getting more and more adorable. i really want to make him my own ya know, but then if i go to school, i'll have to leave him. of course my dad says i should take him if i get an apt and i'm like yeah and pay more money..oh well. i just won't get to see him grow up. *sniff sniff* ; )

here is something a little different and kinda fun...maybe some of you can relate.

** indicates been there, done that, etc. : )

You know you grew up in the 1980's if . .
You ever ended your sentence with "psych"
You solved the Rubics cube.....by peeling off the stickers
You watched the pound puppies. **
You can sing the rap to "the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air" ** In west Philidelphia, born and raised, playground's where i spent most of my days..... ; )
You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish
You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.
You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls
You know that 'Whoa' comes from Blossom **
Three words: M.C. Hammer **
You thought it would be great to have a friend named "Boner"
You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales"
If you played the chipmunks Christmas album all year long! **
Remember reading Kool-Aid man comics
You ever watched Fraggle Rock **
You had plastic streamers on the handle bars of your bike **
You remember When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons **
You wore a pony tail to the side of your head ** i have a 5th grade school pic to prove it. ; )
You saw the original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on the big screen
You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school
You made your mom buy you one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side **
You had a Kirk Cameron poster on your bedroom wall (my sis. did)
You played the game "Mash" with friends at school ** that was an 80's game? Heck i still played that in high school
You wore a Jordache jean jacket and you were proud of it **
L.A. GEAR **
Your mother wouldn't let you have garbage pail kids ** no but i stole them from my brother. ; )
You wanted to change your name to Jem in Kindergarten
You remember reading "Tales of a Fourth Grade Nothing" and all the Ramona books ** i owned some of those books!
You know the profound meaning of "Wax on,Wax off" **
You wanted to be a Goonie
You ever wore fluorescent, neon if you will, clothing **
You wanted to be on StarSearch **
You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off **
You took Lunch pales to school **
You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the ONLY female smurf **
You remember the craze, and then banning of slap bracelets **
You still get the urge to use "NOT" at the end of every statement you make **
You remember Hypercolor T-shirts
Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band
You remember Punky Brewster **
You loved Howard the duck ** that movie was so damn cool! i haven't seen that in years
You thought Sheera and He-Man should hook up **
You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged "friendship bracelets"
You ever owned a pair of Jelly Shoes ** haha
After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you couldn't stop saying "I know you are but what am I?" **
You remember "I've fallen...and I can't get up!" **
You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates **
You ever got seriously injured on a slip and slide
You know not to mix poprocks and soda (but did it anyway!)
You have played with a 'skip-it'
You had or went to a birthday party at McDonald's
You learned oldies songs by watching Alvin and the Chipmunks
You had a Glow Worm or watched the cartoons
You remember dancing along with the Bangles in "Walk Like An Egyptian" **
If you remember Heathcliff the orange cat **
You saw the California Raisins Christmas claymation special **
You've gone through this list occasionally saying "That wasn't from the 80's" ** haha
You remember Popples **
DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! **
You wore socks over tights with high-top Reeboks
You wore like 8 pairs of socks at once, scrunched down **
MISS MARY MACK MACK MACK ALL DRESSED IN BLACK BLACK BLACK..... **
You remember boom boxes instead of CD players **
You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies ** gizmo is soooo cute!
You remember the Transformers **
You know what it meant to say "care bear stare!!" and you had a favorite **
You remember Rainbow Bright and My Little Pony Tales **
You remember watching TV thinking Doogie Howser was hot! **
You remember Alf, the little furry brown alien from Melmac ** yeah, now he does 10-10-220 commercials
You remember the large amounts of hairspray used
You remember those very stylish headbands **
You remember Vicky the Robot **
You remember Eve Garland from Out of this World and how she could stop time by pressing the tips of her index fingers together and talking to her dad through a glowing cube in her bedroom
You remember the beggining of New Kids on the Block **
You remember watching The Cosby show **
You remember Mr.Belvadere **
You remember Michael J. Fox in Family Ties and Back to the Future **
You know all the names of the gang from "Saved by the Bell" **
You know all the words to Bon Jovi's "shot through the heart" song **

See, wasn't that fun...hopefully you didn't get too bored and you made it this far.

Well, as of yesterday, I have no place to live when i go to school. i called fullerton about the insurance thing and found out i didn't have to worry about that, but then the lady tells me that as of the 15th, they have been sending housing agreements back and giving people a wait list number. so isn't that just great? i'm really upset and bummed, but i guess it is no one's fault. it's not like i procrastinated, i couldn't send the payment until i had the money. the only thing i can think of that my family or i could have done is started saving once i knew i was accepted. so, i am not going to give up...i guess i'll look into apts. and what not. and once i get my wait list number, i'll find out where to go from here. it sure has been tough trying to get to school in the fall.

guess what?!?!? my friend had her baby last night! she called me at 9:30 this morning and told me. he came about a month early, but she said he is fine and that they were releasing her today. she named him keedan(sp) wayne. i am not sure of the last name. he probably has his father's last name, but i'm not sure of the father's last name. i can't wait to see him! i'll probably wait a week or two so she has time to get settled and spend time with him, and then ask if i can visit. : )

Yesterday morning i went to a salad bar luncheon, put on by aauw. aauw is one of the organizations that gave me a scholarship. : ) it was really nice. i am a very picky eater, so i only found maybe 2 things i liked out of almost every kind of salad imaginable...but they did have some good dessert. ; ) i also got a pink carnation (they gave them to all of the scholarship winners). i just thought it was really awesome that they did this. it wasn't just for the scholarship people, but for the organization itself, but it was nice of them to include the scholarship winners. i definitely need to write them a good thank you letter.

Let's see...not much has gone on since friday. tomorrow i will be calling fullerton to find out about the health insurance and what not. i also need to get a transcript sent to fullerton and i need to call and get signed up for a workshop i have to attend to receive one of my loans. woooooooooooo. : )

music: tantric - mourning

I am pretty upset and worried tonight. I got my $850 cashiers check today to send to Fullerton for my housing payment and i once i saw it, i felt really relieved. So i get out my papers and starting signing them and filling them out and i noticed a thing about medical insurance. i know i have to be covered by medical insurance before i can go to school, but i may have mis-read something and now i don't know if i have to be covered when i send my payment in or not. if that is the case, i am royally screwed. i have 2 weeks left to send my $850 and it takes a month to get insuarance coverage to start. : ( i sure hope that is not the case...god i hope not. i've gone through too much shit for this one thing to stop me. *sigh* i will definitely be calling first thing monday morning to find out.

well, my favorite nascar driver, jerry nadeau, no longer has a job. he was let go by the team he was with. actually, let me correct that: it was a mutual agreement for jerry to leave the team. right now he is subbing for a hurt driver, but that is only for a few weeks. so hopefully he will have a job for the rest of the season...it'd suck for him to have to stop racing until next year.

last night my friend kristin and i went to my high school's band and choir concert. it was really a lot of fun. i hadn't been to a band function since my senior year of high school when i was apart of it. we went and talked to our old teacher and he was thrilled to see us there. i also saw some people from high school that i haven't seen since then. it was pretty cool. plus i got to hang out w/my friend kristin which i haven't done in a long time.

*thinks* there is nothing else to say, i don't think...oh my kitty is doing fine. it already looks like he's gained some weight and gotten a little bigger. so far he likes to wake up at 5:30am to be fed. lucky me.

music: savage garden - to the moon and back

Okay, so I just got done typing this kinda long post when my browser decided to shut down on me...so here is a short version of what I said:

I found a kitten in my back yard last night. It was in such a place where it could not have gotten there by itself (inside of a tire rim of a tire propped up against the fence), but I didn't see or hear any other kittens or see a mother. I was going to leave it just in case the mother was off doing something, but then my dogs found it and I figured I'd be better off to bring it in...that way it wouldn't become a doggie snack. He's really cute...almost pure black (he's got a white stripe on his chest) and he fits in the palm of your hand. My mom and I are guessing that he's no older than 4 weeks old, if that. His eyes are open, but he's still really tiny. We have done this before...the youngest cat we have now, we also rescued from my dogs in the back yard, but he was a little bigger than this little guy. we've bottle fed many animals as well. this time though, it is mainly my responsibility to take care of it...seeing as how i found it and i don't have to get up in the mornings so i can feed it in the middle of the night. : ) But I don't mind really...I love animals. : )

Last night i was officially asked to be a bridesmaid my best friend's wedding. : ) i almost started crying when she asked me too. ; ). i mean i knew she was going to ask, cause she told she was going to, but it was still kind of emotional. I had fun last night...my best friend and I went to starbucks, then to a restaurant called fugazzi's, which was really good. i'm actually eating my left over angel hair pasta and chicken for lunch right now. ; )

I gave my mom the earrings i bought her and she really likes them...I'm so relieved about that. here's a few quotes about mother's that i got in my e-mail that i really liked:

"God could not be everywhere and therefore He made mothers." - Jewish Proverb
"A man loves his sweetheart the most, his wife the best, but his mother the longest." - Irish proverb
"Mother is the home we come from. She is nature, soil, ocean." - Erich Fromm, psychologist

music: ricky van shelton - living proof

First of all, I must jump on the band wagon: in reference to the damn my menstrual cycle post...I totally understand.

A lot has been going on the past few days. last night i went to scholarship night at my school and i came home with 2 scholarships. one i knew about and one i didn't. i got a total of $800, which will definitely help. assuming my calculations are correct, i'm short about $1300 according to fullerton's student budget for the 2002/2003 year. that's not too shabby, i don't think. : ) this evening i attended my school's first transfer reception, held for all students who are transferring. each of us got a nice certificate and a nice book bag with my school's name and logo. actually, i don't know if a book bag is the right term..it's one of those shoulder bags ya know...hell, i know what i mean. ; )

and the most *shocking* of them all: curt called me on sunday night...here's how the conversation started:
me: "hello?"
him: "hi"
me: "hi"
him: "hey"
me: "who is this?"
him: "it's curt."
me: *in a very shocked voice* "no way....."
i was pretty floored by that and i had no clue what to say, cause ya know i assumed i'd never talk to him again. i guess we're going to try again...he said that he still wanted to be with me as long as i wanted to be his girlfriend. so if we do try again, i'm going to have to lay down some "ground rules" and be a little cautious because i will be putting myself in a very vulnerable position. overall, i am happy he called. i'm very happy..it's almost as if something has been lifted off of my shoulders. cause now i know what happened (not saying it's a good reason for not speaking to me), but i kinda got an idea of where he was coming from. but i guess we'll see what happens. i think i'd really like things to work out. i mean i'm going to fullerton and we're going to be so much closer. i believe we'll be about 30-40 min. apart...which is a hell of a lot better than 4 hours...

so yeah i think that's all the stuff that has gone on the past few days....wooooooo. : )

music: pato banton - don't sniff coke

Went out to lunch with two of my friends today, which is always fun. afterwards we went over to meryvns and i bought my mom some earrings for mother's day. i hope she likes them. she is really picky when it comes to earrings, but if she doesn't i guess she can take them back.

i haven't been up to much the past few days. i did get my housing agreement and packet in the mail for fullerton. everything sounds cool, i just need to fill it out and get the check in the mail. there's a small note in the info. that says that most students do not get enough money in financial aid to help pay for housing, so prepare for some to come out of pocket, which is just great. hell, i've had a hard enough time getting the first payment. i am definitely going to need a job...merc said he'd help me get a resume online, so i'll have to ask about that. ; ) oh and i need medical insurance...though i'm glad about that, cause i've been needing/wanting it for a while and now i have a good reason to get some. : )

hmm...can't think of much more to say...the nascar race was postponed tonight cause of rain, so it'll be shown tomorrow. that kinda sucks, cause it is so cool to watch those cars race at night "under the lights" as they say. oh well, there will be more night races. so tomorrow will consist of nascar, homework, and a take home quiz that is due on monday. : )

music: etta james - at last

Sheryl Crow - Strong Enough
God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
It's try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I've shown you that I just don't care
When I'm throwing punches in the air
When I'm broken down and I can't stand
Would you be man enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave