Sorry for another survey..i'm bored.
This was taken from brian.

[1]First Name: Amanda
[2]Middle Name: Lynn
[5]Gender: F
[6]Age: 20
[7]Birthday: Sept. 17
[8]Height: 5'7-5'8
[10]Hair Color: Blonde
[11]Eye Color: Blue
[17]You Were Born Where: Placerville, CA
[18]You Now Live: Tulare, CA
[19]Asrtrology Sign: Virgo
[21]Nationality: Well, I'm white...but hmm..i guess Irish, French and Scotish, I believe...
[25]Tattoos: None...yet. ; )

[.Pets.]
[40]Do You Have Any Pets: *nods* Doggies and Kitties

[.Favorites.]
[65]Shoes: Sandals
[66]Saying: Stuff
[67]TV Show: Friends.
[81]Season: Fall/Spring
[108]Board Game: Monopoly
[112]Swear Word: Probably shit or damn
[128]Fuck: Hmm..not right now
[129]Bisexual: No

[.Private Life I.E Sex, Drugs, Rock & Roll...]
[185]Boyfriend Or Girlfriend: Yeah
[186]Crush: Um, I guess??
[187]Do You Love Anyone Right Now: Love...yeah, In love, no
[188]Have You Ever Been In Love: No
[194]How Many Hearts Have You Broken: Hopefully, none
[195]How Many People Broke Yours? A few
[196]Best Quote To Sum Up Love: "There is only one happiness in life - to love and to be loved."
[199]Do U Go More By Looks Or Personality: Personality
[203]Do you smoke?: Nope
[204]You Smoke Weed: Nope.
[205]Ever Trip On Acid: No
[206]How About A Little xTc: No
[207]Crack, Heroin, Anything Else: No.
[208]Beer Good Or Beer Bad: Beer bad..it's disgusting
[210]Are you the Little Sissy Who Drinks Mikes And Wine Coolers: Yeah, what of it? I like the sweet stuff
[211]Do you like Smirnoff Ice: Yes, very much so. : )
[212]Prefer Beer Or liquor: Liquor, but I don't drink very often at all

[.Would You Ever.]
[218]Bungee Jump: Probably not
[219]Sky Dive: Probably not
[220]Swim With Dolphins: Yeah
[221]Scuba Dive: Maybe
[222]Go Rock Climbing: Maybe
[228]Cross-Dress: Sure..lol..i only have to wear what..a tshirt and jeans? ; )

[.Have You Ever.]
[286]flashed someone: Not yet
[288]been to michigan: Nope
[289]gotten really REALLY wasted: No
[290]gone to jail/juvi: No.
[291]skateboarded: No
[292]skinny dipped: Not yet
[293]stolen anything from a store: No


[.Yes Or No.]
[385]Are You A Vegetarian: No.
[388]Are You artistic: lol that's a funny question
[389]Are You A Fast Runner: Heck no
[512]Are You Antisocial: No

There, wasn't that fun...
music: dexi's(sp) midnight runners - come on eileen

this past weekend i turned in one of my old rolls of 110 film and last night i picked the pictures up. in there i found pictures of my cat, who died my sophomore year of high school. i almost cried when i saw those pictures. my cat's name was Super Kitty and he was beautiful. (maybe i can get a pic scanned if anyone is interested.) he had quite a personality...one of his fav. things was playing fetch. i'd throw a bottle cap, he'd get it and bring it back to me. this is the only pet i've ever had that i felt was truly mine...and as far as pets go, he meant a lot to me and when he died i was really upset. i remember one time when he was sick shortly before he died, i let him sleep on my bed and i slept on the floor because i figured he was comfortable and i didn't want to disturb him. we never really knew what was wrong with him. we took him to one vet and i think they mis-diagnosed him and we wound up taking him to a 24-hour emergency pet hospital, where we were told he was dying. (can't really remember if they said what was wrong.) so we were going to have him put to sleep, but he died before they could do it. it's hard to explain, but this cat meant so much to me and still does. i still miss him very much. :' )

on a slightly happier note, my best friend has once again changed her plans about the dresses, so now it looks like i *may* be able to do the wedding, though monique is not so sure yet and i don't know about krystal. i should know by the end of next month what rena is doing.

just found out that the tickets for the 311 concert go on sale this sat. and they are $22.50, which isn't too bad. ticketmaster says there's a special guest, but it doesn't say who. well, i just e-mailed the 311 mailing list so maybe someone knows something. anyways, i'm hoping i can go. since it is a club, i'm afraid the tickets might sell out before i can get one, but i guess i'll see what happens. if i did go i wonder if i could get curt up here to go with me...he's losing his 311 "vibe", but maybe if i ask all sweet he will...lol yeah right. ; ) talking sweet has never gotten me anywhere, so i doubt it will now. : )

music: pink - just like a pill

i am feeling frustrated. i was fine until i checked my e-mail. first i wrote an e-mail to fullerton's radio/tv/film department asking for info/help on registration and what i should take and someone wrote me back and gave me very little info, then i get an e-mail from my best friend saying that she wants the bridesmaids to have their shoes and dresses bought by sept. 1st, so it won't cause any problems. blah...she is letting us pick out our own shoes, but they have to be dyables, which aren't *that* cheap. the dresses are $160. Plus you have to pay for any measurement changes. So, I need probably around $200 by Sept. 1st. I mean isn't that a little early for a wedding next May? *sigh* plus i'm supposed to pay for school and all that shit. 2 of my friends have told rena they might not be able to do her wedding because of the cost and now i'm afraid that might happen, which will break my heart cause it is my best friend's wedding. it just bugs me, she said a month ago we had until december to decide and now she springs this on us. monique doesn't have that much money, krystal just had a baby...and i'm going to school. none of us have money. i dunno what to do. : (

had a boring weekend pretty much. yesterday and friday monique and i went to a few places, so i could price some things that i would need this coming fall for school. specifically i am looking for sheets for an extra long twin bed (who knew they made extra long twin beds?) anyways, i tried k-mart and wal-mart and no luck. so tomorrow i am going to look at jcpenny's, gottschalks, and bed, bath & beyond to see what i can find.

i was so bummed this afternoon. my fav. nascar driver (jerry nadeau) was within 5 laps of winning the race when his rear-end (on the car) broke. : ( it was very heartbreaking. this is the third time since last season that jerry has been with 5-10 laps of winning a race and something has happened to where he lost. one time he ran out of gas, and i think the other he wrecked. jerry doesn't have a current job right now, he was subbing for another driver because this weekend they were on a road course and he is a former road course driver. he used to drive formula-1 cars all over europe. i was already kind of teary eyed when i saw he wasn't going to win, but when they interviewed him after the race, he was crying. not like bawling or anything, but you could hear it in his voice and he kept wiping tears from his eyes, so that made me even more teary eyed. i never actually cried, but i came close. it was really sad.
he will be driving a car in chicago in a few weeks, so maybe he can pull off a win there.

music: apex theory - apossibly

p.s. being a girl sucks. : )

i got a letter from fullerton on wed. concerning my housing. i will be moving in aug. 21st, so two months from today. i also got a list of things i will need to bring w/me and a set of questions that are supposed to help me in my readiness for the "residence hall experience." i guess i am supposed to go over these questions w/friends and family..sounds like fun.

i think on wed. i also got my credit card. i haven't activated it yet, i want to kinda stall on that, but i know i can't wait too long to activate it. i just hope when i do activate it, i'll have some good self-control.

let's see, i found out that 311 is doing a small club tour that starts aug. 10th in fresno, CA. so once again they are going to be in this area and i haven't decided if i want to go, i mean of course i want to..but one of the main factors that will decide that is money...how much the tickets are and whether or not i have they money. they'll be playing in a place called the rainbow ballroom, which i've heard good things and bad things about. but i guess if you're going to see a band the best place is a small club. that way you get up close and intimate with the band. i've heard it's pretty awesome.

i think i woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. i wasn't in the best of moods last night when i went to bed, so maybe that's my problem. then i get up and winston will not leave me alone and then he pounced on my face and gave me a nice scratch on my nose which hurt like hell. so he's on my bad list right now. hmm..i think it's safe to say that i'm kinda "pissy" today...definitely not in the mood to put up with anything. : ) i kinda like when i'm in moods like this, cause then i have the guts to say something if something is bothering me, than keeping my mouth shut like i normally do. I'm thinking pms might also be a factor, and if it is, then i can't do anything about that. *sigh* maybe i'll have a good afternoon...

music: james brown - try me

this was supposed to be posted 6/18, but blogger's publishing was down...
and to add something for today....happy 24th!! ; )

i haven't been up to much. though, i did feel better today than i did yesterday, which i guess is a good thing.

ever since it came on, i've been watching american idol on fox. in fact, i just voted for people right before i got online. i wouldn't say that i am addicted to it, but i have always loved shows like this...star search was awesome when it was on. ; ) so at least i have something good to watch for a little while. : )

i defragmented my computer today...wooooo. : ) btw, thanks to brian for helping me out with that. first i checked for errors in my files and on my hard drive and that took probably 30min - 1hr and then i started to defragment my computer and that took at least 2 hours. but then again i hadn't done that in a long time. my computer has been doing some stupid shit and running slow when it comes to certain things, so hopefully this will help a little. *shrugs* i know crap about the workings of a computer, so i really don't know what i am talking about. : )

i believe that is all....exciting blog wasn't it? : ) yeah i thought so...

p.s. pop-ups are evil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

music: incubus - warning

woooo, it's monday...the start of another hella boring week. ugh. i do not want to be here. i can not express how much i want to just leave...what i wouldn't give to be able to go up to the mountains and just sit in slience all alone...or go to the coast and sit on the sand and just stare out at the ocean, getting lost in the waves. i think once i move, the ocean is going to be a big release for me. everytime i go (though i've only been twice) i stare out in awe. i guess maybe if you're used to being around an ocean, you might not understand, but for me, it's one of the most awesome and beautiful things mother nature is responsible for.

I am not sure what else to say. i'm not in the greatest of moods today, though i can't tell if i am bummed or pissed. *shrug*

music: sheryl crow - strong enough

This was supposed to be posted on 6/11, but blogger decided to take away my publish button again. stupid blogger...

wow, i have had a weird past 2 days. not really weird i guess, but different. as of last night i had 2 job interviews today. the first was with the place i mentioned in my previous blog and the other was for john t's, a place i mentioned a few blogs ago i think.
let's talk about the first interview... this is a place called Vector and they sell cutco knives. i was very skeptical from the beginning about this because it was some place i had never heard of and i had no clue how they got my address and had come to the decision to offer me a job. my skepticism grew even more today when i walked in the place this morning and it was literally a hole in the wall: there was no one at the front desk. all that was there was a little sign up book. there was no furniture..only some tables that seemed to be rented from a party supply store and folding chairs. i am in there and i have no clue what to do cause there is no one in sight. so i walk around this make-shift wall and i ask a guy who is also there for an interview what i am supposed to do and he tells me. so i eventually meet the manager of this place (and he looks no older than 25 yrs old.). after i fill out a short "application", he invites me and this other guy into his office and tells us that he will look at these applications and then give them to his "personnel department" and from there they will decide about who to hire. then he goes on to ask us a few questions, more like small talk and then he says something like "well, i can tell you guys have a positive attitude so why don't you guys stay and we'll go ahead with a second interview." at this point i am wondering what happened to his so called "personnel department." i guess i should mention that right before he invited the guy and i into his office, there were 2 girls in there and they stayed too, so apparently he tells everyone that they have such good attitudes that they can stay for a second interview. the second interview consisted of the 4 of us sitting around a desk in front of a small white board and this manager guy basically lecturing on how the company works and blah blah blah. he said he was basing his decision solely on this second interview and he asked us various questions..and i swear it was like being in a classroom and the teacher asking questions. this was no interview. he even told us that he didn't care about our past work experience or anything. he asked for no work experience, no resume...nothing. so after all of that, he asks us to fill out this acceptance form and he first calls the first 2 girls into his office and after me and the other guy in his office. he said that the other guy and i both got the job and everything and he made it sound like the other two girls didn't, but when i saw them leave they looked all smiles and happy, so i'm wondering about. so by now i'm like "shit" cause i am feeling very uneasy about this and the dude just offered me a job. so i talk to monique about it, my parents, and even rena asked a msg board that she frequents about cutco and she sent me various responses, such as: "My fi almost got sucked into doing this one summer, and it was terrible.She'd be better off spending her time looking for a real job," cutco is a company that exploits college students to sell their knives door to door thru referral only. she will have to hit up her friends and family for referrals. it's a waste of time and money that she needs to shell out to buy the "knife kit"," and I know someone that did it and it was a giant pain and stressor." so along with these comments and my skepticism and everything, I am going to call tomorrow and decline this job offer. though he already expects me to do it, i will tell him it is not going to work out. not to mention i'm not the sales person type.
after that i had my other interview, which went *much* better. monique and i are up for the same job, as are a lot of other people. john t's said they'd call on monday, so i guess i'll see, but i dont' really expect to get that job.

on our way home from the job interviews, monique and i stopped off at wal-mart. she wanted to show me some rings that she found and knew i'd like. for those who don't know, i really want a sapphire and diamond ring. well, she found some..they were only $8.88 and i looked at them and i found one that i really liked. i then took her home and around 4:30pm she called me and asked if she could come by and show me a letter that she had gotten. she said that her and her mom were out running around, so i said sure. she came over and she was showing me the letter and she reached for her back pocket and said "oh yeah i also wanted to show you this," and she pulls out the ring that i liked. she bought for me. i can not believe she did that. she just told me today that she didnt' need to be spending money because she just bought a car and her savings was getting thin, but she bought me the ring anyway. i asked her why she did this cause i knew she was running short in her savings account and she said she wanted to, plus she said that she got it because i was going to be leaving and everything. i swear i have the bestest friends. this ring means a lot and will always mean a lot. she and i have grown close the past few years and she's just awesome. : )

and for the finale of the blog...fullerton called me this afternoon and said that if i got my payment in within 72 hours, that i would have a dorm to live in!!! i almost started crying. now i do not have to worry about trying to find an apartment and even a job, at least not right away. i tell ya, these past 2 days have been pretty good..and i am really happy. things are starting to work out and i just feel great. : )

live - all over you (unplugged)

had a pretty much uneventful weekend. now that i think about it, i don't think i stepped outside at all until yesterday evening...how sad is that?

in the mail today i got a letter from a place hiring for summer and permanent work. i'm happy that they are considering me for this. i tried calling and no one answered so i will try again later. from the letter it looks like it's some sort of agency and they place you in job, so that's cool.

i also turned some pics in last night, so they should be ready by wednesday. there's some pics of winston in there, so i'm probably going to try and post some. that way you guys can see what keeps me up most nights. ; )

was any one else absolutely thrilled that mike tyson lost his fight? man i was laughing. i can honestly say that he is one person who i wouldn't mind taking a baseball bat too. he's such a prick : ) actually, i didn't really think he'd lose, but i'm glad lewis pulled it off.

oh yeah...i can definitely hear the wedding bells. ; )

music: grasshopper takeover - owe it to you

i am very sleep deprived today. winston decided to keep me up until 6am. he first woke up at 1:45am and between the time i went to bed and 1:45 i got *maybe* 45min. of sleep. after that, i did not get to sleep until after 6am. i was getting unbelievably frustrated. i was tired anyways and winston was just not cooperating with me. so i got up about 11 this morning, so i got about 5 hours of sleep, but i'm still tired.

the past few days i've been feeling kinda blah...physically and mentally blah. for some reason, i am just not feeling good about myself or anything and i am not quite sure where that is coming from. it's graduation time and i think that is bugging me. it's not that i miss high school, though i guess on some level i do. but i miss the feeling of having achieved something. it's been 3 years since i got out of high school and i just don't feel like i've achieved much of anything and i don't feel like my life has gone anywhere. now assuming the stars work in my favor, my life should change in the coming months. i should be living in a new place, going to a new school and starting the path to my career, being able to actually be with someone i care about, being able to see friends i haven't seen in a year. some of you may be reading this and thinking, " well, if you're unhappy, why don't you change it?" well, i am aware of that, i'm not dumb enough to expect someone else to change why i am not happy. i think certain people in my life have the capacity to help me change, but ultimately it is me that has to do the changing. maybe all i need is support. to get the support i probably need, i would have to put my heart on my sleeve and expose all of my feelings and well, i'm not sure if i want to do that. there's one person who knows me more than anyone else, and that is my best friend. but she is busy with her own life, especially with work and wedding planning. maybe i should be excited cause i should be moving on to bigger and better things, but i'm worried that might not work out. sure, i know that is no attitude to have. i should be positive and take charge of the situation i am in and i am trying. i'm sorry, i know none of this makes sense and maybe 2 hours from now i'll feel a little different. *sigh* who knows...

"A man can change his stars." ~ a knight's tale

eminem - cleaning out my closet

I went to open a savings account yesterday at washington mutual and i did not walk out of there a happy person. i did not have enough i.d. to open a savings account (apparently my driver's license, my social security card, and my birth certificate were not enough), so i was pressured into seeing if i could get pre-approved for a visa card...that way when i got my credit card, i could go back in there and open a savings account. how convenient. the lady said there was nothing else i could do, so i told her to go ahead and see if i was pre-approved - so i am now the owner of a washington mutual visa card with a $500 limit. *sigh* i do not want a credit card, but i went with it for 3 reasons: 1) i figured if i tried to go to any other bank, i'd get the same spiel, 2) it would help to build my credit if i use it properly, and 3) i would have a "secondary i.d." if i ever needed it again. now i will wait for my card to come, then i shall go back and open a savings account.

tonight i turned in an application to john t's(a little gift shop place). maybe i'll have a chance with this place. i also went to wal-mart tonight where i ran into a person i knew from my tv/film production class. this guy got a job where merc and wiz used to work and where i interned at one point. i believe he was hired as an editor or asst. editor, well now he says he is head of production. he said he lines up talent and everything andhe said they just got back from oregon shooting and next week they are going to new orleans to film something. apparently the company is slowly moving out of the "self-defense" business, and now they film such things as bmx racing, moto-cross, and fly fishing. needless to say i am still a little bitter over this, but i imagine i never got a chance or anything cause i didn't show enough initiative and i didn't "come out of the hole that i was hiding in" as one girl told me when i interned there. hmm..maybe one day i'll be doing bigger and better things. one never knows...

Well, the business that I sent my resume to called me this afternoon and the woman asked me what i was doing for the future and i told her that i may be transferring and she said that they were looking for someone permanent, so i did not get the job : (. I could have lied, but I didn't feel i should lie to her. she did say that if there was any summer work that she would call me back. i'm honestly just really glad they called. at least they showed some initial interest. i think i am going to have a hard time finding a job this summer. though i guess finding one when i go to fullerton is more important. *shrugs*

i have named the kitten....and the name is *drum roll*...winston. actually, it was my dad who came up with it, and it fits the cat. i was really leaning towards calling him nadeau (the last name of my fav. nascar driver) and then my dad came up with winston...which came from winston cup, a series in nascar. lame? maybe, but i like it. ; )

oh i learned something new about myself today: i don't like spiders so much that i am afraid to suck them up with the vacuum cleaner. who would have thought?

music: david bowie - golden years

once again i am very tired today...this time the kitten woke up at exactly 3:11am (now normally this would be cool cause ya know it's 3:11, but i was not amused) and he was awake until 5am. so i got to sleep just as the sun was coming up and slept until 11am. i didn't get to sleep until 2am cause i was hot so i got about 6-7 hrs of sleep. i sure hope the kitten doesnt' decide to do this again tonight.

watched the wedding planner tonight. now if that isn't a watch over and over again chick flick, i don't know what is. i absolutely loved it. thinking about recording it.. : ) i was already kinda lonesome, so watching that movie seemed fitting, though now i feel even more lonesome, but oh well. i still enjoyed watching it.

hmm...i had 3 things i wanted to say and i can't remember the 3rd. oh well...off i go..

music: no doubt - six feet under