Week 1 Is Over

I just got done w/my first week of school. This is definitely going to be a challenging semester for me and I'm not quite sure if I am ready for it, but I will try to be. My American Studies classes are not what I hoped they'd be...they're more like history classes and we have to read history books...My Story Structure class is as bad as I thought it'd be. It's not a bad class, but it heavily involves writing, which you will read to the class. I'm not entirely comfortable w/that, but I'll have to get over it. American Film is, well, it seems like a class I've already taken, so may or may not be easy for me...it discusses films from the beginning to 1945. And my production class, I think, is going to be the best out of the 5, though I'm still worried about it. I'm really excited because I get to edit...and the projects don't seem so bad. Each student has to film and edit a music video 2-4 min. long and then in a team come up with a drama/comedy short. I was thinking we would have to do more individual projects, but nope..and I am happy about that. I am excited to do a music video. I am definitely going to do a 311 song (shocker there), but I am not sure what song. I'd really love to do Beautiful Disaster, but I can't quite get a vision in my head for that song. I do kind of have a vision for one song, but I don't know...I'll just have to think about it....I've got 7 studio albums, plus various other songs to choose from.

Yesterday was an interesting day...mainly interesting because it didn't involve my normal routine. My production class will normally run from 8:30am - 12:45pm (including lecture and lab), but we got out before 10am, so I hung out with this guy who was in my production class last year. We hung out from like 10am to 2pm. It was pretty cool...we just talked and he let me read a musical that he had written. It was pretty good. I've been thinking...for my story structure class I need to write a treatment for a move script, which is just a narrative of what the movie is about. I figure if I am going to work my ass off (which is what it will be) to come up with an idea and write this thing, I might as well go all the way and make a script out of it, right? Right. So, though it is early, I am thinking about taking screenwriting next semester so I can do that. I guess I could do it on my own, but it was just a thought.

It's a 3 day weekend. Wish I was going somewhere...probably a bad weekend to be traveling though. My room mate is going to Vegas, so I'll the room to myself, which, though I love her, is always nice.

Oh yeah...the one room mate that was supposed to move in that didn't and I was so worried about living with, I guess went to the powers that be to request to be moved into the new dorms. I guess she doesn't want to live with us (the feeling is mutual though). So, we're not sure what is going to happen there. It is nice only living w/3 other people...much more space. ;) I'm sure if she doesn't move in, they'll put someone in her place, since it is early in the semester. That's cool...anyone's got to be better than this other girl.

I got sunburned yesterday. I was visiting w/someone around 4pm and I was sitting outside on their balcony and my right arm got sunburned and so did my chest...where the collar of your shirt falls. I imagine I look pretty dumb w/one arm darker than the other...I was only out there maybe 20 min...but I guess it was long enough.

Alright, that's all of my ramblings...hope everyone has a safe and fun weekend. :)

No Doubt - Detective

Nobody does it like 3-Eleven!

K, since I am a member of 311's "Online Street Team" I am posting this. :) Enjoy! :D A regular post coming soon. :)

Music: Sugar Ray f/Nick Hexum of 311 - Stay On

Back in the OC

Well, here I am...checking in from Orange County, back in my old suite on campus. I am not in the same bedroom as before, but that is fine. I am also with my same room mate. My bed is under the window (which I *love*)...plus I always get warm at night and my room mate gets cold, so I can crack the window and get my coolness w/o making her cold. :) PLUS since I am in this bedroom, my room mate and I get the bathroom, w/2 sinks. That's what I really wanted. We each have our own personal area and there is only 2 people in this bathroom, so I'm liking it. I'm living w/the RA again this year, and she is really nice. She is a little different from the RA last year, but I like her. Met another one of my suitemates as well...she's been living in the dorms for a few years and she seems really cool too. There's one other girl, I guess she's moving in this weekend, but hmm...yeah, my room mate and I knew her from last year and I mean, she was pretty much nice to us, but the people she lived w/hated living w/her, so I am a little worried. She's been kinda rude to me before, so I hope things work out.

I haven't decided if I am glad to be back or not. I guess I am glad to see the people I met last year and a lot of the people who lived on this floor last year are back and I'm really glad that I'll get to hang out w/Merc and Ong again...but I dunno. This just feels different. I feel this huge pressure to be social and everything and I'm just not feelin it. I was talking to Ong this morning and I mentioned that I just didn't fit in. I'm surrounded by 17 and 18 year olds and I just don't relate to them that much...but it bothers me that I don't fit in. I know in reality it shouldn't, because, I don't want to fit in w/a lot of the people...especially most of the girls, where's it all about how much cleavage can I show, look at the car mommy and daddy bought me, and does this outfit go with my french manicured nails. I'm sure there's more I can add, but you get the picture. Anyways, this semester I really want to get over my whole dependency thing and get over the feeling bad if I missed something. How fun is my life going to be if I sit and dwell on the things I missed, ya know? (311's new album has a song on their new album called Don't Dwell...I should make that my anthem). This year I just want to strive to do my own thing and be independent and not worry so much, cause I tend to do that a lot. I just want this year to be different and I want it to be life changing, some way or some how.

Music: Mamas and the Papas - Dream a Little Dream of Me

Life would be easier...

...if I could have stayed w/Merc and Ong this summer....and this is why:
- I wouldn't have to pack
- I would be 15 min. from school
- Therefore I wouldn't have to get up early Wed. morning to be in Fullerton by Noon or 1pm

I am sure there are other reasons. It's annoying...I just unpacked 2 months ago and here I am again, packing. I really can't wait until I have my own place. It's going to be lovely.

Back to laundry...

I have been trying, for 3 days, to make plans w/my best friend to go shopping and hang out before I go back to school and it is just not happening. I am just not used to her having an obligation to a husband. I keep having to remind myself that it is not just Rena anymore...it's Rena *&* James. So yeah...she kinda flaked on me yesterday because her husband got home late and she had to cook dinner for him. I am hoping we can go tomorrow. If not, I'm going to be a little upset. I understand she has an obligation to her husband (which, I won't fully understand for a while), but it is just so hard to make plans w/her. My dad was thinking I was upset because I had to "share" her now, and I don't think that's the case. We've kinda lost touch w/in the last few years and we don't have much in common anymore...so, I don't think the fact that she is married now and spends time w/her husband is a problem...we haven't hung out a whole lot in the last few years anyways.

But...moving on...

I got a package in the mail from one of my suitemates. She made a cd of all kinds of songs that all of us loved to listen to last year...it's so cool. :) I hope I have great suitemates this year, but I don't think anything is going to top last year....even though it had it's ups and downs, it was great and I don't think I could have asked for better people to live with.

One more thing....Vanilla Pepsi is *SO* much better than Vanilla Coke. :)

Music: Watching TV

Missing Hair

Well, I tried doing this last night and it didn't work, so let's try this again...

I got my hair cut yesterday. I wasn't planning on going, but my mom was going and just told me to go with her. So instead of my hair being in the middle of my back, it is now 2-3 in. below my shoulders and I had the front layered. I really like it. It's not much of a difference I guess, but I am getting braver and braver when it comes to my hair. :)

Last night I sat down and figured out how my money situation is going to be next semester and it's looking pretty gloomy. I am receiving more in loans this year, but the difference is there is tuition coming out of these loans, where last year I had a grant that paid my tuition. So, I figure I will have about $500 left out of my first loan to live on until early November. Fun stuff....really going to have to conserve. I just hope I can find a job on campus...I am going to hit the place up after I get there.

I agree...Linkin Park has awesome lyrics...

Music: Kid Rock/Sheryl Crow - Picture

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I am having trouble with this title thing...I can never think of a good one. *shrug*

I haven't been up to much lately. Yesterday I ran a few errands and applied for some new health insurance (is that stuff expensive or what??). Today I went to visit my best friend, which was nice...I brought some food from home and we had lunch together and for a couple of hours we just sat at the kitchen table and talked. I really miss hanging out w/her. But she is doing well and she is enjoying being a housewife, so I am happy for her. :)

Well, just as I was thinking the love affair between AOL and I was over, they give me 2 more free months. :) I have been w/AOL for 8 months and I signed up for it so I'd have the internet at home during winter break. I've called to cancel 4 times I think and each time they give me more time...so I've had 8 months free. I figured I'd cancel it today and then pop in my 45 free days of Earthlink cd, but nope...the guy gave me 2 more free months. The guy I talked to was nice too...and he had an awesome name...Braden. I love that name...I may have to keep it for future use, if there is one. Ya know, it's funny...when I've called AOL I talked to 2 girls and 2 guys...both of the girls were nice and we just did business and that's it. Each time I talked to a guy, we sat on the phone and talked. Asking me about CA and the weather if I was a student, what I'm studying and then they tell me the same...like the guy I talked to today knows I have a brother that lives in Utah and I know he is from Utah. *shrug* Maybe it's something their trained for, but I don't know...it's just interesting.

I will be back in Orange County in 2 weeks. I move on the 20th and school starts on the 25th. I want to go back, but I don't. I can't wait to be able to see Merc and Ong and their friends and hang out. I missed them a lot. :) But at the same time, I have to pack all of the stuff again (repack mostly) and move back in, which is a hassle. I am also a little nervous about the 2 new room mates I am going to have. My old room mate and I are rooming together again and we're supposed to be in the RA suite again and we know who the RA is, but there will be 2 new people. I mean the people in our suite last year were just awesome and I'm afraid it won't happen again...but I guess I'll see.

Hmm...better go check my laundry...

Music: Maroon 5 - Harder to Breathe

Thanks

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who liked and supported what I said in my rant below. I was real hesitant to post it and after I did, I was hesitant to keep it there. I just felt vulnerable...I mentioned a few things that I haven't really told anyone, so I was kind of scared. I also wasn't sure if people would look at it and think that I was trying to have this "holier than thou" attitude. I certainly don't think I am better than anyone else, so I hope it didn't come off that way. Anyways, thanks again and thanks for the feedback. :)