Miss Me?

I am not feeling too well after my bowl of Cheerios this morning...well, they're actually Albertson's Toasted Oats, but same thing.

Had a good weekend...I got to go home thanks to Merc and Ong. It was short, but still nice. I really do miss my parents and I miss being in my house and my room and I'm slowly coming to the realization that I will not be living there permanently ever again (well, assuming things go right). Kinda sad to think about, really. I am kind of eager to experience life on my own, I am not eager to leave the other part of my life behind. Though, I guess one has to grow up some day and that day is slowly approaching, though quicker than I want it to.

I am reading a novel right now for my Intro to American Studies class. It's called The Pioneers and it is soooooo detailed...I feel like I want to shoot myself when I'm reading it. Do I really need to know the exact color of white the snow is? Or every piece of garment a person is wearing, down to the color of thread? In some instances, detail is nice and it works...but not in this case. So far, I noticed a paragraph in this book that was two pages long. Blah. This book is going to be just great.

This semester is definitely challenging for me. And it's mainly because of my writing class and my production class. How I feel about my writing class depends on the day. Sometimes I think it's not so bad, I can do this and other times, like now, I feel really discouraged about it. My production class is just a chore for me right now. I really don't like the production part of filming. It's not so bad if it is a team setting, but it just being myself really freaks me out. I don't like dealing w/the audio, lighting and shooting. All I want to do is edit and because of that I am having a hard time motivating myself to work on my project. Not to mention I'm a bit worried about how it's going to turn out...which, I need to quit worrying because that's only going to hinder my efforts. I just want to get through this semester...If I can do that feeling good about what I have produced, I will be happy.

Oh and 48 years ago today, James Dean passed away. So sad.

Being the 311 fan that I am...

...Here ya go. : )

Test.

The Gold Rush

A very good movie, directed by and starring Charlie Chaplin. We watched that tonight in class. I can remember watching it in the 4th grade. I think my teacher rented it for us because we had been a good class or something. This is the movie where he puts the rolls on forks and makes them dance...like Benny and Joon if you've seen that. I don't know, I just really liked it. I remember liking it when I was little and I still do. I say check it out, especially if you've never seen a silent and/or Charlie Chaplin film.

Wow! Look at my blog! I didn't even know it was different....aww, I love the logo thing...thank you, thank you. :) :)

Sunday Work

I've been working all day. Between reading, studying, and coming up with ideas, I thought I would take a break and blog for your enjoyment. See how nice I am? Taking time out of my own schedule so you have something to read...I never cease to amaze myself. ;)

So...I think I have a pretty good basis for my music video. I think I have enough ideas and things to fill up the song, but I am not sure. I know I can always cut the song down. My only problem is I need to cast my video. There's actually a guy who lives next door who I think looks the part, but I don't know him. I think I'll just have to settle for someone.

I am feeling pretty good. I didn't wind up going to the health center on Friday. I woke up and my throat felt a lot better and I looked at it and it looked a lot better, so I didn't mess with it. I'm just glad I feel better.

I had my first Long Island Ice Tea last night. It was alright, towards the end of the drink, I found myself having to choke it down a little. I could feel it a little bit too. Me, 2 girls from my place and another girl went to TGI Fridays last night and then we came back and watched The Ring. Didn't creep me out as much as the first time I saw it, so that was good. We also had brownies and ice cream...yummy.

Guess I should get some more work done...or do something productive. I actually watched a movie after I wrote the first 2 paragraphs of this post. I should take a shower...yeah that sounds good. :)

Music: 311 - Flowing

I seem to be feeling better. Last weekend was awful...I had a fever for about 4 days. I honestly think I had the flu (which I can never remember having), but I went to the health center on Monday and the Dr. said it was just a cold. This feels different than a cold though. I am actually going to go back to the health center tomorrow. Though I am feeling better, my throat is not. It's still extremely sore and my tonsils look like they're infected again, so I'm going to see if they are. What ever this sickness was sure knocked me on my butt though.

Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes. It was a nice day. I got treated to breakfast by Merc and Ong and then last night I went to dinner at their friend's house, which was good. They also gave me Disney Dollars so I can go to Disneyland...I'm so excited. :) On Tuesday I got 2 packages from my parents...one was a care package and the other was my present, which was a chenelle throw. I've wanted one for a long time and I'm so glad I finally have one now. :) Oh, and a suitemate from last year bought me the latest Linkin Park cd, which I also love. It was definitely a good day.

I should get going...in the middle of doing laundry...plus I have a lot of reading to do. Ickers. Oh well...hope all is cool with everyone. :)

Sick

I am miserable. :(

RIP

I get online to check my e-mail and find that two people have passed way...Johnny Cash and John Ritter; they both surprised me, but Johnny Cash touched me more. Maybe it is because my grandmother loves him and my parents love him...I bet between them there are over 20 Johnny Cash record albums in their possession. And because of that, I like a lot of his music. It saddens me a little...it really does. May they both rest in peace.

9/11/01

Let us not forget.

Saltwater is good for the Soul

The beach is just awesome. I know I say that a lot, but there's something about staring out at what seems to be this endless blue horizon. Just beautiful.

Hung out w/Merc and Ong again this weekend, went to the beach on Sat. morning, where I thought up my title. ;) I really enjoy hanging out with them.

I don't have much planned for the week. I need to go shopping at some point...I am getting way low on groceries. My room mate seems pretty busy this week too, so I am not sure when I'll get to go shopping. I can probably ask the other girl too...she just got a car this year and she knows what it's like not having one and she offered to take me anytime I needed to go...anyways...

I seem to have ideas started for my script and the music video I have to do. Somehow I thought once I figured out the ideas, I'd feel pretty good, but I don't. I have this real uneasy feeling...now that I have the idea, I have to turn it in to something. Little freaked out by that.

In other randomness, this last Saturday (the 6th) would have been 3 years for Curt and I. Isn't that shocking. It's been almost a year since I heard his voice and contacted him for the last time. It's crazy how things work out sometimes. I wonder what might have happened. Hmm, I still feel left behind in this whole relationship business. Seems everytime I turn around, one of my friends is in a relationship now or is advancing their relationship. Okay...just got to keep telling myself, "someday Amanda, someday..."

Music: John Popper - Once You wake Up

Alone

I am so tired of being alone...whether it be physically, emotionally, literally, figuratively, etc...I am just sick of it. I suppose it's good for me on some level. But you can only take so much of turning around and realizing you're the only one there.

Music: Evanescence - Going Under

"Isn't it Random..."

I had a pretty good weekend. I spent most of it w/Merc and Ong. They are such fun people to hang out with. They took me to a few places I hadn't been before...such as Fashion Island (a big outdoor mall) and Corona Del Mar (a beach). Corona Del Mar was awesome...I think we were there around 5 or 6pm and we just stood on a landing staring out at the water and it was just beautiful. I love it...I absolutely love it.

I've been thinking about Curt quite a bit lately...I wonder how he's doing, what he's up to. Honestly, I probably wouldn't mind talking to him. Not that I am going to call him, that would be stupid...but it'd be interesting to talk to him and find out what happened w/us...I am over it now and I am just curious. Still looking for closure I guess. *shrugs* Who knows why I think about these things.

I was told about another file sharing program. Fullerton isn't letting us use Kazaa anymore (jerks), so I will try this new one. I have gone through so many file sharing programs...Napster was definitely the best. So I think I'll go download it...sorry for the full of nothing, randomness post.. :)

Music: Live - Imagine (John Lennon cover)