I wanted to update sooner, but I've really been feeling like crap. My sinuses have been very mean to me. I thought it was a cold, but I don't think it was. I am beginning to feel better, but I still sound all nasal.

Last Friday was my last day at my internship. It was sort of bittersweet...I mean I liked the people I worked with and I liked what I did, but it is going to be nice to have 2 days off without any requirements. I will probably begin work on my resume and I believe I can still go have it reviewed at my school's career center, so I will do that and begin, what I fear will be a long search, for a job.

One of my bosses at work yesterday came up to me and asked, "are you still considering leaving?" And I said, "yeah." And he said, "that's a shame." I think a few of my supervisors and some of my bosses would like to see me stay and try to promote myself to higher positions. I have to admit that it is tempting. It would mean an automatic $1.00 raise...which I could use...but it still might not be as much as I'd get elsewhere. The scared side of me wants to go this way, because it's comfortable, but then, in a way, it seems wrong. It seems that I should be doing more...after all, I am officially college educated and I didn't spend 6 years in school and $20 grand to work at Target. Plus, I really don't like retail...It is the people that I work worth that keep me going to work everyday. I guess do I feel flattered that they want me to stay and think I would do good in a supervising role, because they have more confidence in me to do that than I do, but I don't know. Maybe a supervising role would give me some experience...help me to quit being such a pansy about things, but *shrug* Any advice from anyone?

I got my 311 pictures back...they were pretty crappy. :( I did get some cool shots though, like the drum solo in Applied Science and Nick and Tim's duet during Beautiful Disaster. Yep yep.

You know, I am curious, how long will it take me to get rid of all this confusion I have floating around? 30? 35? 60? Never? I am just waiting for a time in my life where I can be completely confident, carefree, and cool. Think it'll ever happen?