Hump Day Productivity

I have been relatively productive today and I am quite satisfied w/myself. I started off by getting up before 10am, I then did my laundry, straightened up my room, made my bed, etc. Then I went to my school's Career Center website and filled out a profile and looked up the internships they have listed. I saved 8 of them that look interesting and that I will probably apply to when I get my resume in order. I have what I feel to be an okay one, if not a decent start. Next week I'll take it into the Career Center...they have walk in resume help. Tonight I want to work on a general cover letter (I blow at cover letters...I'm sure you guys know that I don't do concise very well).

Tomorrow the university, including the dorms, is having an 8 hour power outage, from 8am - 5pm. Soooo, yeah. No afternoon internet for me. I will probably go to the mall, do a little clothes shopping and browsing...then I can do lunch somewhere. Then maybe I'll come home and go feed the ducks in the arboretum*. That would be fun and very cute. Showering in the dark should be nice too. It's quite relaxing, no lights, no fan, just darkness and hot water. Oh, and I must remember to unplug my computer when I go to bed tonight.

Yesterday, one of my old roommates and I went to see Guess Who, with Bernie Mac and Ashton Kutcher. It was really good; I enjoyed it. I definitely recommend it. Also saw a preview for a new Wes Craven movie called Red Eye with the girl from The Notebook. It looks good.

Alright, I am off to do something with myself..

Music: Harry Nilsson - Put he Lime in the Coconut

*A place where an extensive variety of woody plants are cultivated for scientific, educational, and ornamental purposes. (I share the definition because I never knew what an arboretum was til I moved here..)

Frustrated

I have decided that Microsoft Word sucks. It is impossible to work with, especially when you are trying to format. Word THINKS it knows what you want, but it has NO idea. Argh!!

Sunday Movies

I watched 3 good movies yesterday...

The Incredibles: A very good movie, it kept my interest, though I didn't laugh out loud too much. Maybe it's funnier when you watch it with someone else, but it was a nice, feel good movie.

The Notebook: Now, I could be wrong, but I don't think I've ever cried so hard during a movie. The ending had some sad parts, but at the same time, it ended so sweetly. The locations were beautiful too...some of the outside scenery was just amazing. I loved this movie. Now I want to read the book.

Ray: Very good...it did not seem that I was sitting there for 2 1/2 hours. Now I see why Jamie Foxx won an Oscar. Very good acting all around in this movie.

Oh and on Friday night, I finally watched Napoleon Dynamite for the first time. The movie was completely random, but I laughed and I enjoyed it. There were a few parts that just cracked me up and surprisingly one of them wasn't the dance scene, though that was funny. My roommate says you catch more things if you watch it again, so maybe I'll do that sometime.

It was nice to watch some good movies, especially the way I've been feeling lately. Definitely a nice break from reality...though, of course, now I am back. Woo.

Music: Harry Nilsson - Put The Lime In The Coconut

Someday I will learn not to pour my heart out on a public forum because I usually feel silly and stupid afterwards. Funny thing is, what I did write about isn't even half of what I'm feeling...Oh well, life goes on.

Spring break has officially started. I have no big plans. I may or may not go to Ventura for a few days to visit my friend who went home for spring break. I know I want to get my resume done and start doing some research for a paper I have to do. I wish I could go home...

It amazes me that it is going to be April. A month ago I was complaining that I couldn't believe it was March.

I think I might go rent some movies today, but I haven't decided. Part of me doesn't feel like getting dressed.

I bought a nice/cute outfit to wear for job interviews. And it only cost me about $80, including the shoes. I don't think that is too shabby. It's nice and springy...probably not your typical interview outfit, but it is nice and I didn't want to be all plain. I still want to go shopping for some summer stuff too.

Thanks to Monique, I have also acquired some Garfield flip flops from Walmart. They had 2 colors, blue and purple. I couldn't decided between the two, so I got both. They are so cute.

Okay, I am off to do something...just don't know what.

Music: Alicia Keys - Karma

I Have This Problem...

...I don't care anymore.

I am having the hardest caring about a few things...

1) School. I have 2 midterms today and 1 tomorrow and I have barely studied for 2 and haven't studied for 1. I am just like "eh," I go to class everyday, I can wing it. Not a good attitude to have. I just want it to be OVER.

2) Work. I have found myself wasting a lot of time at work and if I am not wasting my time, I am taking my time. I haven't been working efficiently as I have been. This is not to say that I don't do my work or get it done, it is just different. Oh, and there is a girl at work who apparently doesn't like me anymore and I know it's for no good reason because I have never done or said anything to her...we used to have conversations. I know it's probably because I hang out with and talk to some people who used to be her friends but cease to be anymore. If I had guts, I would tell her: You're 25, married and have two kids. Grow the fuck up. Thank goodness I have no guts. It's fine if she doesn't like me, but at least have a good reason...no need to be rude to me when I haven't done anything.

3) My sister. I thought a lot about my sister last night. And while I have been bummed because she makes no real attempt to be in my life or maintain a relationship with me...or a friendship for that matter, I'm tired of being bummed about it. I have done nothing by try since I was 10 years old to have a relationship with her. She was my biggest role model and then she moved to Maine. She's now in New Hampshire and sadly, I think I can count on two hands, the number of letters I have gotten from her in 13 years. I'm done trying. I have told her numerous times that I wanted a relationship and she seems to ignore it. And it is bullshit that she will not call my mom in fear that she might have to talk to my dad. If I had guts I would tell her: You're 35, grow the fuck up. Actually, I'd tell her a lot more, but whatever.

See, the thing is, I want something more. Work is getting harder to deal with because it's such a meaningless, thankless job. What am I contributing to? I put clothes on racks, big deal. Do you think any one customer appreciates it? If they did, the store wouldn't be in a constant state of disarray. This job has definitely made me question the decency in people. I wonder how in the hell their caregiver raised them. Weren't they taught to pick things up? Weren't they taught to put things back where you found them?? That was a big one in my childhood. Though lately I haven't worked as hard as I usually do, more often than not, I bust my ass at work...and it pisses me off that people get paid more than I do and don't do a damn thing. I realize I will probably get stuff like this at any job I work at, but retail is almost down there w/fast food. No one cares, just serve me and let me be on my way. Oh and apparently there was a bomb threat at work yesterday afternoon. But we weren't supposed to fear because our security was there. Please.

I realize that I probably sound like a bitch, but I just feel so fed up about a lot of things in my life right now. I am starting to feel it and it is starting to affect other aspects of my life. I just don't know where to go from here.

I am so groggy this morning. Maybe it's because I woke up in the middle of a dream. I had some weird dreams last night...one was like this old fashioned dream where I had lovers pursuing me and then it turned into an I Love Lucy episode. How my mind conjured that up, I have no clue.

Work was insane this weekend. I am guessing because Easter is coming up. This week promises to be a pain. This coming Saturday will probably be the worst. I am actually off on Sunday, which is nice. It will be my first Sunday off since I can remember. I'm sure I had some Sunday's off when I first started, but that ended after a month or so.

Target had it's team member's fill out survey's...asking about our jobs, our supervisors, etc. I enjoyed it immensely. My answers were very average in that most of my answers were in the "C" range. I just wish they had a little box where you could write comments in, but they didn't.

Midterms this week...yucky. I got some stuff done this weekend but not as much as I would have liked. I need to get some studying done today though. I have 2 on Wed. and one on Thursday.

I think that's all that's going on here...which isn't too much. ;)

Happy Belated St. Patrick's Day. :)

How is everyone doing? Well I hope. I have no big plans for the weekend - just read/study my ass off because I have midterms next week. Oh joy. Though, I am happy, because one of my teacher's pushed the midterm back to after spring break, so that is one less class to worry about. I have 2 midterms on Wed. and one on Thurs. of next week.

I am really liking my History of Rock class. We're still talking about The Beatles...and when we listen to Beatles songs, I have to restrain myself from singing...it's so hard! Though, the dude that sits next to me sometimes was kinda singing along, so I'd do it a little, but I just wanted to bust out in song..lol. Even when we're not talking about The Beatles, this is the one class I look forward to...even if it is at 8:30am.

I went and talked to the internship lady and she still reassured me that I could still do the summer internship, but to make sure I did attend the orientation. Next week I am hoping to work on my resume and hopefully get it done, go shopping for a nice interview outfit and then I can start looking and applying.

What the heck is up w/the gas prices?? It's like $2.33/gal. here...and I think the national avg. is $2.05/gal. Man, I thought I was making bank when I only had to pay a little over $2. I have to fill up today too. Stupid Southern CA.

I was so excited yesterday...I went grocery shopping and almost everything I normally buy was on sale! I saved like $20. I was so happy! Boy, you can tell I don't have much going on when I'm excited about my grocery shopping. *shrug*

Speaking of money, today is payday...which is always nice.

Okay, I should go start my day or something. Happy Friday! :)

My 311 day was fun. I went to Newport Beach in the morning/afternoon, then came back and relaxed before work. Going to the beach in March - CA is great like that. Though, I did get sunburned again, but I think it is tradition for me - I must get sunburned in some way, shape, or form if I am out in the sun.

I am pretty tired this morning...got up earlier to work on a small paper that is due at 2:30. I only had a 7-Midnight shift at work last night, so I thought it would be easy...nope...they gave me 2 departments, so I had to work my ass off and it was a LONG night. I used to do 7-Midnight shifts for a month or so when I first started, but I forgot what it was like...been doing 5-Midnight shifts for 8 months.

Our kitchen sink has been clogged since Friday. It is quite disgusting and it is starting to smell. I will probably get decent and go put in a maintenance request. Our pipes are all inter-connected and if one person uses a garbage disposal, it clogs up the sink for a lot of people. You'd think you could use the garbage disposal to throw out food, but these aren't your mom's garbage disposals....they are old and ghetto and we are not allowed to use drano or anything like that. Ickers.

My mom's birthday is on Wed. My dad and I ordered her some flowers and are having them sent to her work. I think she'll be really surprised. I couldn't really think of anything to get her, so when all else fails, flowers will work. I can't wait until she gets them.

Let's see...what else...

All of my internship stuff is on hold for a little while...partly my fault, partly not, but I am frustrated. I will being talking to the internship lady soon. Apparently they have made changes to the way the internship is done and how you apply for it and because I didn't attend an orientation that wasn't required and because the internship lady didn't put anything up on her website, I am not turning in an application that is due tomorrow. Through e-mails, she said that I would be fine, just a little behind, so she better honor that. I am just afraid I will get screwed over and told I can't do my internship until Fall 2005, which would f*ck everything up. Grr...I just want out of here!! I'm SOOOOOOOOOO sick of school. 6 years is quite enough.

Wow....a long post...look at me. ;) Too bad it's not more intriguing. Happy Monday. :)

Music: NAS - Bridging the Gap

HAPPY 311 DAY!!!

Listen to some 311 today. 311 is good for the soul and does a body good. ;)

Long Awaited Post

Would you believe I am up before 10am...for no good reason? What is this world coming to?

I am completely worn out from work last night. It was a rough night. We got shopped really hard and then today our district manager is supposed to be there and do a walk through, so of course, when the boss comes around, everything has to be perfect and we had to do projects that should have been done earlier. It was a basically a lot of running around and by the time I got home, my feet, ankles, and legs were cramping. Let's hope tonight is MUCH easier.

While at work last night I bought pillows. They were 2/$5! I thought that was a great deal. I am so excited about my new pillows. My head will enjoy them immensely.

I haven't really been up to much. My roommate and I have been watching a lot of Sex & The City. Up to Season 5 now. Ugh, I can't believe Aidan is gone! I'll tell you, John Corbett is freaking hot. He was Ian in My Big Fat Greek Wedding, just in case no one knows who he is.

Season 9 of Friends is out tomorrow, but according to the Target it ad, it is only 2 discs and not 4 like the rest. I know Season 10 was a shorter season, but was Season 9? I'm confused. It's only $30...I wish I could justify spending the money.

Let's take a poll - How many of you actually care about what I am talking about? lol I am rambling about nothing. That is how you know that there isn't much going on in my life...

Music: Bobby Vinton - Mr. Lonely

I will only write a little on NASCAR, I promise. Sunday was fun, except for 2 things. 1) It took us 4 hours to get home, when we were only 45min, at the most, from home. I could have driven to my parents in that time. 2) I got completely fried. Some how I always think that it has to be hot and sunny to get sun burned. As Duckie from Land Before Time would say, nope nope nope. Though, it isn't your normal sunburn, it had a twist. I got burned where my hair line is and where my eyebrows are, but the middle of my forehead isn't burned, so there's a nice white spot in the middle of my forehead, actually, it is almost gone now. Then I got burned a little along my jaw line and my ears got fried. On my arms, I got two areas on my forearms that got burned and that was it. Definitely the weirdest sun burn I've ever gotten. And I swear that one day I will learn.

This is the last week of my earthquake class...yay! We review for the final today and take the test on Thursday, which I am pretty much unprepared for...but hell, all I need is a C, that is all I care about. Right now I have a high B in the class, so I should be okay.

I have compiled a list of all the things I need to do to help prepare for my graduation and internship this summer. The most important of those things is getting my resume in order. I plan to work on that tomorrow night and Thursday night, so I can get it checked off next week and get my paper work done for my internship. At the end of this month is also all my midterms...yikes! I'll tell you, the week before spring break is gonna be hellish.

I realized this morning that work as not pissed me off in a while. This is a good thing, but I probably just jinxed myself.

Oh yeah, can you believe it's March already? What the hell?

Music: Someone's Annoying Rap Music