Hello all. I hope everyone's Christmas went well. Mine was alright, I suppose. I didn't wind up going to my friend's house, I wound up staying home, just me and the turtle, nursing my cold. I really needed a day of good rest, whether it was Christmas or not. Did everyone get what they wanted for Christmas? I got some cool stuff...my parents got me the 20th Anniversary version of A Christmas Story and a bottle of Eternity by Calvin Klein...my roommate got me a set of glasses from Crate & Barrel, a candle, and the director's cut of my favorite movie, Cry-Baby. I almost fell off the couch when I opened that. A friend from work got me some lotion from Victoria's Secret, another got me a stuffed cat, a secret santa got me some more lotion and a $20 gift card and my roommate's parents got me a $20 gift card to Best Buy. I think I did pretty well. ;)

I am SO glad Christmas is over though...I am anxious for things to get back to normal at work. It has just been too damn crazy.

I went intimate apparel shopping last night...there was a good sale, buy 2, get 2 free...and I found the bestest bras. I am very excited and last night I couldn't wait to wake up this morning to wear one. Silly...yes, but I don't care. It is so very rare that us women find something that fits good and right. Oh and I bought some flannel pj pants with stars and moons on them for half off...can't beat that.

All of you out there doing something fun and celebratory for New Year's Eve...I want you to have a drink in my honor because I will be at work, probably ringing in 2006 as I am walking out to my car to go home. Isn't that sad? I was going to ask for it off, but I was too late in asking. I think I got a little screwed on the holidays this year. Speaking of time off, I think it might be time to try and make a visit to see my parents. It would be nice to have a change of scenery...I just want to pick a good time, so I can drive w/o any worries of weather because I really don't want to take the train. But the way the weather is going in Southern CA, it will be 90 degrees in February, so there probably won't be a problem.

Alrighty, I am off...take care everybody...have a fun and safe New Years. :)

Music: Cry-Baby Soundtrack - Teardrops Are Falling

So, it's been a while since I've done this...guess I've been busy. Here's an update...

Work has been a pain, but only a few more days and hopefully things will settle down. I seem to be surviving okay, my boss says I'm doing a good job, but that he needs to see more enthusiasm out of me. That's never going to happen. There is no way that I will walk in one day happy to be there. I don't say that to be pessimistic, it's a tolerable job and I do well, but I do not look forward to it. It's a job, not a career, so I am not required to look forward to it.

Christmas is coming...I've spent a lot of time trying to pretend that it's not here, but it's not working very well. Looks like I will be going to my friend's house for the day because I work Christmas Eve and open the day after Christmas at 7am. Bah. AND I didn't think to ask for New Year's Eve weekend off, so I will be ringing in 2006 at work. Bah again. It's alright, no one to celebrate with or kiss, so why be excited about it.

I want everyone to meet the newest addition to my apartment:



This is Sammy. My roommate's b/f got him for her for Christmas. She can't really figure out why he got her that, but it's an animal, so I think it's damn cool. He's a little skiddish when we're around the tank, but hopefully he'll loosen up.

Music: My Chemical Romance - Helena

10/9/40 - 12/8/80

Well we all shine on...
Like the moon and the stars and the sun...

Homesick

I am very homesick lately. I am not sure what has caused this...probably the holiday season. I just find myself sad and emotional lately. I have been away from home about 3 years and it's harder on me now than it was when I first got down here. I can't seem to get used to not being around my parents. I really hate it. It's the one thing that sucks the most about living here. Sometimes you just need a hug from them, sometimes you just need to sit and watch TV with them, sometimes you just need their presence. I feel a bit immature being 24 and feeling this way. I think my greatest fear is having something happen and I won't be there...that kills me. And I don't know how to make myself feel good about being away from them. I don't know why I can't "let go" like other people seem to. Maybe it wouldn't be so hard if I could see my parents more than two or so times a year. I really have no one here. Merc and Ong are the closest thing that I have to family around here and I appreciate it so much, but it's just not the same.

I know my dad reads this...I love you guys very much and I am sorry I am not there. I miss you terribly.