Oscars

I must say that I am generally pleased w/the nominations...possibly because I actually saw some of the nominees. Though, I wish Walk the Line would have been nominated for Best Picture, I am happy that Reese and Joaquin got nominated for Best Actress and Actor. Also, after seeing a few interviews w/Joaquin, I have decided that he is sweet, funny, cute and I want to marry him. That is all.

So where will you be on the night of Feb. 27th? Well, I will be seeing 311 in concert...yeah buddy. (Thanks, Merc..)

Before this last week, the last time I had gone to see a movie was in August...this last week I saw two..one you know about the then I FINALLY saw Walk the Line. I absolutely LOVED IT. I have always loved Johnny Cash, there is just an eerie, simpleness to his voice that is just addicting. I thought the acting was great (I was very thrilled that Joaquin Phoenix and Reese Witherspoon won Golden Globes for their performances). I seriously left the theater feeling blown away. So, with my $20 gift card to Best Buy, I bought The Essential Johnny Cash and yesterday I bought the soundtrack to the movie. When the movie comes out on DVD, I will be buying that too. My roommate and I are both addicted to Johnny Cash right now. It is cool.

As of today, I have worked 2 out of 6 days in a row at work. That irritates me...I mean, there's nothing I can do about it...but I swear they're trying to wear me out. My boss also gave me a copy of the exact same interview booklet that will be used when I am interviewed for the job. There's about 30 questions and I hope they don't ask all of them. I'm a little intimidated by the questions, but all I can do is answer the best I can. I am not the greatest at interviews...therefore, I am trying to sike myself out w/confidence. The interview should be in about a month, give or take. I want to get it, but if I don't, then I think I will be forced to move on.

Do you ever have a time when you just feel that your body is out of sorts? Like something is just a tick off? I've been feeling that since this weekend. I think I've pretty much had a constant headache...which I think is sinus related, it has been windy here. I have also been constantly hungry. I cannot get full, even when I eat. I am wondering, though, maybe I am having too much sugar in the morning and it's throwing off my whole day? And sometimes I wonder if I am hypoglycemic or maybe a glucose intolerant cause this stuff happens frequently. Perhaps, well, that's a big perhaps, but maybe I need to just eat better. I am not sure what is going on, I just don't feel like myself.

My dad did something very sweet. He sent me an angel. I was very surprised and touched by this and it is definitely something I needed. Thank you very much, I love you and mom very much.

Music: Joaquin Phoenix - Folsom Prison Blues

My roommate and I went to see Brokeback Mountain last night...and I left speechless. It was well written, very well acted...it was wonderful. It was just a great love story. I definitely recommend you see it, if you haven't already.

Oh, and btw, these are the two most beautiful young actors....my roommate and I have decided that they are the Johnny and Brad for our generation.

So, can somebody tell me how it is almost January 10th already? Geez, if this is what 2006 is gonna be like, I better not blink.

I just got back from Ventura. My friend is moving to Charlotte, NC to do a paid internship dealing with Nascar. I am very excited for her because she is doing something she's always wanted to do. So, I left yesterday to visit her one last time before she leaves on t he 14th. I'm gonna miss her...I didn't see her a whole lot since school ended, but she is also my race going buddy and now that she is gone, I probably won't go as much.

Lately, I've been trying to decide and figure out what the hell to do w/myself. I was thinking about not going through w/my interview for the permanent supervisor position at work...but now I am thinking that I might as well stay there until I know what direction I want to go in. I really don't think that I want to do the film thing anymore, which is a bit unfortunate, but life goes on I suppose. So, now the toughie is figuring out what I want to do. I feel so odd, I feel like I'm moving backwards and doing things backwards in my life, but now more than ever I have no clue what I want or where I want to go. My friend was joking w/me that I should move to NC w/her...and the thing is, especially w/my job, I can move anywhere I want, do anything I want. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing, but I know myself. It may take a while, but I will have an answer and I will figure out what I am supposed to do, so I think until then, I will continue at Target, pay some bills down, save some money and see what happens.

I am toying w/the idea of getting an iPod...I am thinking that maybe if I get a good amount back from my taxes that I may get one. My fear is, though, that I won't use it enough to justify spending $200 + accessories. Sure, there's the car, but I rarely go very far...maybe I just want one cause everyone else has one...who knows. That's why I want to really think about it before buying it.

On Saturday night I went to my first hockey game...well, it wasn't the NHL, but it was the Long Beach Ice Dogs, which I think is a minor team. It was a lot of fun! Guys getting thrown up against the glass, losing helmets, jerseys and gloves when fighting, it was cool. AND they had a great selection of music...they played 2 311 songs! I about jumped up and screamed...actually the first time I grabbed my roommates leg and was like, "OMG, they're playing 311!" They played Beautiful Disaster (my fav) and Come Original...so if I didn't like them before, that pretty much sealed it. I just love my band. Though I did see them on Dick Clark's New Year's Rock Eve, and Nick needs a hair cut desperately.

This is going to be a good week in TV...Miami Ink is on tonight and 2 hours, yes...I said 2 hours, of Lost tomorrow night. Oh yes, it will be good.

First Post of 2006

Give Me Novacaine

Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine

Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that’s alright
Jimmy says it's better than here,
I’ll tell you why

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine

Oh Novacaine

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine