A Real Update

So, how is everyone doing? Well, I hope.

Not much going on here...I went to my interview a few weeks ago to see if I got the job, and I failed. Well, actually, I came back has a "potential hire," (but haven't I been doing the job for over 3 months?). So, what this means, is that I get to keep doing my job, w/the pay and then I will go back for ANOTHER interview for a job that I can already do. To me, this is bullshit. Some stupid corporation formality. But, whatever. I think I am gonna milk this as long as I can...I really don't want to go through another interview. So, now that I am not locked into the job, I am going to poke around and see what's out there and if I can find something, I will probably leave Target...or at least step down and work part time. I just think it's silly...I can do the job and if I didn't do at least a decent job, I wouldn't have been sent to the interview, but because I didn't answer questions to their liking, I didn't get it. Okay, enough of this.

I bought some hair coloring last night. I have never colored my hair...partly cause I'm chicken...and because I didn't want to lose my original color. But at the same time I want to do something different. And in all actuality, it's not that different...I bought a lighter shade of blonde, so it's nothing drastic. I would just like to lighten up my hair. Hopefully, it turns out nice.

For the first time ever, I have seen 4 of the 5 Oscar contenders for Best Picture. I am proud of myself. I have seen Brokeback Mountain, Crash, Good Night and Good Luck and Capote. Without seeing Munich, I am not sure what will win. My guess is between Brokeback Mountain and Capote.

A few random one-liners...

Trying to find the best health insurance plan is annoying.
Bloody noses come at the most random times, especially when you haven't had one in years.
The Nascar race is this weekend in Fontana and I'm not going :(...I've gone the last 4 times.
I have a 3 day weekend and only a 4 day work week next week.
311 concert is on Monday..yay!

Music: Nirvana - Where did you Sleep Last Night?

I have discovered a new pet peeve. I have no rational explanation for it, but I guess pet peeves don't require one. I can not stand it when people put those stupid decals on their cars of their families. You know the stick figure ones w/the mom, dad, son, daughter, and a dog or cat. That just irritates me. Who the hell cares that you have a family? I suppose the same thing could be said of my 311 sticker and license plate frame w/a 311 lyric...but it just doesn't seem the same. Advertising that I love a particular band is one thing. Advertising that one has a family is just annoying.

A better post is coming soon.

This song makes me sad...

Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Fire

Here's a view of the sky yesterday from my parking lot and all of the smoke from the fire. I thought it looked kinda cool.

Since I had a 3 day weekend last week, I decided to call out one day and drive home and surprise my parents. I have to say that they were quite surprised. The looks on their faces was classic. :) It was really nice to be there and it's hard to believe that it's already been a week since I've been at home. I really miss being around them...I need to go home more often because it's not a hard trip. I think it will do me and my parents good to see each other more often...it is just the type of relationship we have.

While I was home, I bought a life insurance policy. Odd, I know...but, I did it for a few reasons. For a "just in case" incident, and to help out my best friend who was training to sell insurance. So for $23 and change a month, I get a $100,000 life insurance policy....I think it's $100,000...I don't remember.

My interview to keep my supervisor position at work is on the 10th. I'm not as nervous as a used to be...a few days ago I got a mock interview and got some good feedback. I have decided that if I do not get the position, I am going to move on. I can always try again in the future, but if it is meant to be, it will happen.

So, it's tax season. I got mine figured out, I just need to file them. I was hoping to get enough money back so I could justify buying myself an iPod, but I didn't. I mean I could afford one, but...I dunno. One side of me wants one and the other is questioning spending $250 (I'd get a Nano probably) on a contraption to listen to music. I've thought about looking to see if I could get some refurbished ones or something, but I don't know. It is an inner struggle.

I am addicted to James Blunt right now. His album is awesome.

Music: The White Stripes - Little Ghost