Angry Inside

Am I the only one who has anger issues? I mean, it's not like I fly off the handle or need anger management therapy, but I quite often find myself bothered, annoyed or pissed off by things that, I feel, most people wouldn't get so worked up about. Or things that do not directly affect me.

I've always been the type of person who keeps things inside and when something minuscule happens, I fall apart, but I'm really falling apart about the bigger issue, not the tiny non-issue.

I suppose this is hard to explain unless you know me personally and have been around me when I blurt something out or get really upset/emotional about something. To try and give an example would be tough.

Sometimes, I feel I should try and get to the bottom of my "anger." Truth be told, I think I know some things that affect me in an angry sort of way or just an emotional way and I can kind of pin point why, but I wonder if everything comes back to that or if there are other issues?

When one of my coworkers started a while back, she said that her first impression of me was that I was angry. Granted, I was at work and often times, I am annoyed while there, whether it be the clients or just the job itself, but I don't want to be seen as an angry person. I mean, we all know I'm a pessimist, "life's a bitch," and the glass is half empty type of person, but I am happy a lot of the time.

I don't know, I feel that I am at a point where if I am going to be upset or pissed off about something, I want to have a valid reason for it...if not, I just want to blow it off. I have gotten better about this and not letting it get to me, but I need a lot of work.

Aww, damn, I don't know where I'm going with this...just throwing things out.

Music: The Raconteurs - Salute Your Solution