Taxing Job

It seems as though work as gotten worse for me in the last few weeks. I am having lapses of judgment, I am forgetting simple things and I am getting way too stressed way too easy. I have been trying to wake up each morning and go into work with a positive, laid back attitude and just take things as they come, but most of the time that goes out the window the minute I get to work.

For example, last week, I came in at about 10:30a. I walk through the door...no "good morning," no "hello," just "Why didn't you come in at 10," from the other manager. I responded with, "Because the schedule says 11," and all she said was "oh." Then, I am bombarded with all of the things my receptionist had done wrong so far that morning. After the complaints, I asked nicely with a hint of sarcasm, "Is there anything else?" To which the other manager said, "Yeah, he's no good." Now about that time I wanted to go around the corner and tell her off, but everyone knows I am not a fighter, so I just walked away and pretty much ignored her the rest of the day.

I believe I have decided that I do not like this girl. When she first started I kinda got those feelings, but I ignored them because she was new with this hospital and I barely knew her, so I didn't want to rush to judgement or anything. But now, I have officially decided that I do not enjoy her at all. She does not treat me with any respect in regards to my position in the hospital. You know, if hospital issues arise or if something happens that affects the hospital as a whole, I bring it up to her and the doctor because they are a part of the management and deserve to know things or whatever. But, does she do that for me? No. She also treats me like I am one of her nurses...she tells me what to do, how to do it and follows up w/me to make sure I do things right or she makes sure I am telling the doctor things that she obviously needs to know, but she doesn't think I am capable of doing.

This is starting to take a toll on me. It's like when I first started working at this job and our old manager didn't like me and made my work life hell. This is along the same lines except this time I know what I am doing. It makes me mad and makes me sad because I know how hard I have worked at this damn job and how much I have improved. I have been at this hospital since it opened over a year and a half ago and I have watched it grow and it is honestly amazing. For this, I feel I deserve a little bit of respect.

Music: Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love