Work News

I haven't decided if this is a good thing or a bad thing...but...

Today the two bosses dropped in, unannounced, and had a little meeting with me, the other manager and the doctor. After the meeting, my boss asked me how I was doing in my position...I did the "so-so" hand motion and then he pulled me into an exam room to talk to me.

At this point, my boss pretty much called me out on everything...saying that he could see that this job was not "my cup of tea" and knew that I was stressing out and that I did not have the desire nor the heart for my position. I almost crumbled with relief when he said that. I told him he was completely right; that in the past I had talked to HR about how I just didn't fit in my position. While I love the nuts and bolts of my job, I do not like being a manager - dealing with numbers, figures, goals, etc.

Since we are supposed to be having another doctor start in August, I had previously asked him if I could hire another receptionist. He then suggested that I put an ad out for an office manager (which is my position), and I would be the assitant office manager, but keep my pay. He said he could put in an "exception" for my pay, so I wouldn't lose anything. He did say that more than likely, he would be able to do that. He asked, that in the off chance I couldn't get my same pay, if I could afford a cut in pay. I told him, no, I can barely live on what I am getting now and I mentioned that I have been looking around because I need more money. He explained that he could not pay anymore and I told him I understood...that I just need more money because I live alone w/all kinds of bills and I just need it. He offered to be a reference for me if I needed it and that if I left he understood. In all honesty he seemed relieved as well. He said the hospital needed someone more outgoing and stronger in my position.

So there you go. I hope nothing comes back to bite me in the ass. I agreed to this because this job is driving me crazy...and if I can't keep my pay, I'll try to get a part time cashier job or something to make up for it. This job is a big part of why I have trouble sleeping, why I am stressed and part of why I am unhappy. In the meantime, I will be looking for a higher paying job.

As I said earlier, I feel relieved, but...I'm a little nervous as well. Also...the thought of relinquishing control to someone else makes me a little anxious. Figures, right?

Music: Led Zeppelin - D'yer Mak'er